I think i might be broken. I don't think i've ever really felt stuff as intensely as most people, and now i just can't stop thinking there's something really messed up about me. It's kind of hard to explain, but i feel like there's something missing from me in the emotional department.
For example, i don't cry if something tragic happens, and everyone else is just openly weeping. I just can't.
I just realised that i don't laugh, i just smile a bit.
Yesterday my sister sort of opened up to me and i just kept thinking how i don't feel stuff the way she does. Not the sad nor the happy. Sure i feel something, but it's nothing compared to what i hear of other people. I mean, you like to talk to people about your feelings and i've never felt that. I feel really uncomfortable when i'm supposed to talk about stuff like that.
I do get romantic feelings and i'm not totally incapable of love, but even that is different.
I guess my Asperger's syndrome covers a lot of it, but not all, because. I'm also asexual. I also resently found out my psychiatrist thinks i have "signs of dissociative personality disorder". I'm very confused at the moment.
I'm 17 by the way.
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I have 4 ideas/theories:
1) Result of some trauma;
3) Tired/burned out;
4) You are more balanced than others, maybe even close to people, who are called "wanderers".
What are your reactions/feelings or thoughts towards some strong stimulus?
* roll-coasters in attraction parks (if you rode them)?
* when you are eating favorite food?
* negative news, films, anime (blood scenes and other disturbing scenes)?
* do you cry from sad/good things?
* have you had unexpected "explosions" of laughter, when you see some funny things?
* fear/scared toward/of something?
Maybe you can write some other things I haven't mentioned.0