Like I want feel better right now! I feel so much pain I can't even describe how ugly I am getting. I am shaking and mad and confused and scared! I feel like I invest my time on someone only to burn myself over. Please tell me everything will be okay! Tell me... it won't hurt anymore... or should i add that to my list of pain that I must numb out? I feel like I give my heart to the wrong people and after I worked on myself so much! Its not fair... its just not! Thats just how I feel... thanks for reading my rant questions!
Most Helpful Guy
I'm sorry to hear that and i give you my condolences.
Life is hard, we all lose people. Some sooner and some later. I never had a father nor a stepfather. I barrely have any family too. You just have to accept it because its how life is even tho it is unfair.1
Most Helpful Girl
First off, I don't know exactly what happened, but I am sorry it happened to you.
Unfortunately, things happen that we can't understand. It's perfectly normal to feel anger, confusion, and even extreme feelings during times like these.
Try to channel those emotions into constructive behaviours such as crying, working out, breathing and even punching a pillow if you really need to. The worst thing you can do is to lash out at other people and create other problems for yourself. Just try to take time to deal with the right now.
I know it seems like things are bad right now. But they will get better. Bad times pass, even if they seem their darkest right now.
Whenever I am having a hard time with something, I vent. I vent and I write in my journal. They seem to help. I also come on here and I talk with people. A lot of my friends do not understand my life, as it's so different from theirs. But there are probably people on here who have had to deal with similar situations. If you need advice, this is the place to get it. If you even just want to talk, find people you can talk to.
I've had terrible things happen to me this year, by people whom I loved so much. I was in an abusive relationship. Then when that relationship ended I found someone new. I thought I had found the man I had been praying for. He told me I was beautiful, that he liked me a lot and that he wanted to keep seeing me. We became official and dated for a year. He told me he wanted to live with me and that I should move closer to him. So I did. Then I found out he cheated :( I was absolutely devastated.
What's worse is he seems to be blaming me, saying I'm the wrong doer, even though he cheated. I never did anything wrong in the relationship. I catered to him completely, from bringing him food to taking him places and paying for dates.
Sometimes people are just absolute jerks. It's sad to hear that people do these things. But it's far too common.
I hope that you are feeling better soon and that you can find people to lean on during these difficult times!1