I often deal with bad thoughts.
I've tried those lifelines and chats. Last time I waited on someone to talk to. I was on hold in one hour and was greeted by a guy in a horrible mood, where he spoke to me in a very downgrading and negative tone. He even snorted at me twice.
So I lost all trust in those sites and feel like they'll judge me if I call.
How can I regain the trust? I know there is nice persons out there, but I'm honestly too scared to call those lines again.
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Different groups have different guidelines and requirements. Just like it's sometimes difficult to find a therapist who's a good fit, it can be difficult to find a service that's a good fit. Just don't call those particular people back in the future and keep a list of the people you do like.
I think you also need to discuss this with your parents and possibly a school official so you can get real world help and stop this cycle.0