sometimes I will feel pretty and good enough to date someone but then other times, like now, I just feel so inadquete. Like I don't know why anyone would ever want to actually be with me over other people. I just feel so meh... I guess I could lose weight which is the main thing I'm insecure about but then I feel like I'll always find something to feel low about...
I don't know at this point whether I should actually consider therapy because it actually makes me feel depressed sometimes.
Most Helpful Guy
What you are describing here is your self-image.
There are 3 levels of one's self image, namely a good self-image, a mediocre and a bad one.
An individual with a good self-image is convinced they are valuable and good from within and don't need external validation or attention to feel good about themselves.
A person with mediocre self-image typically only feels good when she gets validation or a positive influence from the outside, yet is also very dependent on other peoples' opinions on her.
Contrary to the 2 above, someone with a bad self image believes, they're not even worth of living and deserve nothing good. Not even a positive feedback like a compliment for example could make them feel better.
You're saying it's making you depressed
On the other hand , you're only feeling so low "sometimes" - I guess it's an up and down spiral therefore.
You also mention how there'll always be something that'll make you feel insecure about yourself, meaning that you'll probably end up in a doom loop.
These thoughts are thoughts that sufferers of Anorexia Nervosa or Body Dismorphic Disorder usually have.
The question now is, where your mediocre-self image comes from.
To figure this out, you should consult a therapist since it's necessary to find the root of this vicious thought pattern, a therapist will also help you account for your past.
Most Helpful Girl
You are so pretty! I cannot believe someone like you is insecure. You're also a very sweet person, from what I gather of your interactions here on GaG, if they're representative of the real you.
Any guy would be lucky to be with you. I don't know what you can do to help with self esteem. I struggle with that myself.
I also feel inadequate and I will turn down guys if they're attractive, sweet, and smart because I feel they can do better than me.2
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