I haven't cried myself to sleep in a very long time, but last night I just couldn't stop the tears. I cried till I couldn't anymore and then fell asleep.
I give everything to my friends, I support them emotionally and when they need me I am there. I even got my parents to drive me to a friend that tried to commit suicide whom was in a hospital in a different town just to show here I care for her.
She got her life on track and few months ago I have hitten rock bottom. Going out has become harder for me too do and big groups of people scare me as I don't feel like I fit in. I needed her to be there for me, but she is not. She gets mad at me when I don't want to go out or don't want to go to church, its hard for me to get up in the mornings and it is harder for me to go out.
I feel hurt that she does that, and I feel like my friendship never meant anything. I feel like I am a bad friend, but most of all I feel hurt because when she needed me I was there and now I need someone I am alone. Yesterday I got unfriended and re-added. "blaming" it on a "glitch" I miss her, but trying to talk to her doesn't seem to work.
I am just so tired and needed to vent :(
Most Helpful Guy
I have been there where all of your freind are gone. It just down right sucks. Message me if you want to talk. Id be happy to chat with you cause I don't want someone else to feel that terrible pain for as long as I did. For me the only thing that helped was talking to someone who would just listen. When a freind at church tried to encourage me it only hurt more. The way that I got through it was learning to guard my heart with new poeple. https://biblehub.com/proverbs/4-23.htm and to just cry out to God. At that point I only really listened to these two songs.
I do highly suggest talking to someone like a therapist or if you have someone at church for that. Talking out loud about it helps a whole lot more than just texting about it.
I'm sure that your an amazing freind however no matter how great of a freind you are. It won't reflect in how they treat you back. Your not alone you have God but it definitely feels like your alone.
Most Helpful Girl
I call Friends like this, @LorryC... Fair weather friends to the Ends.
Dry your tears here, dear. Get used to this. Friends come and go, don't get Too attached, and Only Trust You, Yourself and God, as the Three of the Best from the Rest.
Many times, they Mistake your own Kindness for Weakness. You have sadly Allowed them to do this. When the Chips are Down, even though You have Always been Around, it is a Test to See if they will be There for You in the End.
Good luck. xx0