i've reached a stage in my life that sometimes i can't even think of any good things come to in my life, because whenever i try to, all the past and present experience which i had and having is just like in front of me, and i think like im fooling myself by hoping good things to come. and i just can't think of any good things to come.
Most Helpful Girl
Of course I've thought that way for some time in my life but not anymore. Personally I've gone through a lot of awful shit in my life, at some points I was suicidal. And in my head I just thought life is already so fucking shitty at this point and I've barely even reached adulthood.
But now I don't really think that way so much, if at all. This past year when I moved back to my home country from China it changed me a lot and I've surrounded myself with positive people and gotten rid of those who don't matter in my life and those who just drag me down. So now I really don't think that way anymore, and any hardships I go through these days I don't think of it in a shitty way anymore. Tbh I never really thought I would become like this last year when I was suicidal.
Whats even more is that when I went back to visit china a few months ago I was raped, and while I was there all my bad emotions came back to me and I felt suicidal again, and I was surrounded by the same toxic people I was with last year so I knew that this was the main source of my problems. But then when I came back to my home country, getting over what happened just seemed so much easier because of the positive people I had here, yeah the rape still haunts me every day but had it happened last year when I was suicidal I probably wouldn't even be living right now.
Im telling you, the people you surround yourself with matter so much more than you think. And if you're still feeling shitty, you have to find the root of your problem and sort it out. Good things WILL come in your life you're not fooling yourself, I used to think that was a lie too, but here I am happier and so much more positive than I have ever been in years. You just have to make sure you get rid of or minimize the time you spend with the toxic people in your life to improve your life. Just don't keep on dwelling "what" good things will come, just that there will be good things to come.4
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Most Helpful Guy
I know sometimes bad experience is a root that influence but I now suppose that they will desire good even if they think people evil base on bad experience but they are very greed to desire good finally.1