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Are you even sure that the video is available? Was footage of it ever released online?
You say that you might be sick but in reality there are a lot of people with morbid curiosities. It is often more about exploring your fears in a safe environment, it doesn't make you a psychopath. You should consider that someone actually died though, try not to remove the human element from the story or overlook it.
There is nothing particularly impressive in being able to watch online gore videos, many people already do and if anything they are usually social misfits rather than anything dangerous.
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