Latley life has been pretty bad.. or in my mind at moments it has. I'm almost 20 and have a baby. Yes I know I'm irresponsible some will say but whatever everyone has own opinions. But my "best friend" hasn't talked to me in a month. The one guy that liked me I turned down I really wasn't interested. And when I was at the beach with my family I'm like man I just wanna be with friends and be having fun. I just want to every now and then party hard. And have a super good time. Not all the time not me. But I want to every now and then. I want a boyfriend who gets me and respects me.. I know people say it will get better but I'm really really sick of waiting.