How to stop relationship manipulation? Help?

hi guys,
i need your help. For some
reason I can't help but keep blaming my boyfriend for little things he does (f. e: i often blurr out that he isn't honest with me anyway, that if he really liked me and if i was really important to him he'd make time for me and treat me like a priority, etc.. )
i think i do this because i really love him but i'm not sure if he feels the same and in order to prevent my heart to get broken i think i'm doing this things to make him break up? because i couldnt take it if i loved him all the time but he never had such feelings towards me?
What should I do? :(
how can i stop this?
How to stop relationship manipulation? Help?
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