I'm writing everything down. It's overflowing from my fingertips. I feel anger and emotions that I haven't felt in a long time. I feel like I messed up so badly. I can't even trust my own judgment. It's a terrible feeling. I guess there's really only one way to go from here, I hope.
That's good news, and that's part of the process. The real value here is deep inner healing. Relationships churn up the stuff inside of us that is... distorted or broken... it's a purifying process. Maybe you did, if so, that's seriously ok. Can't walk without falling down a few times nor ride a bike. This is the value, without this pain, you'd stay the same in your old state... which we both know was kinda like emotional crutches. "God", that to me is your design based upon love gravitates to wanting to be in a state of pure love. So when you are tested with relationship/love, it exercises your deep emotions. It's exercise, so your quads hurt after a workout... that's a good sign:)! Now the rest, recovery/e. g. learning and healing inside part... then in a better place as a person... freedom from the emotional wounds from long ago that are no longer wanted. That... is what is going on!
I'm sorry you have to go through this.The worst part is how hard it is to trust in the possibility of love the next time it appears. There is a certain zen in walking the line between not getting fooled again and not becomiong too cynical, either.
Been there 7 times now. Some things in life get easier. Being cheated on is not one of those things. Each time gets worse than the time before.
Makes it feel like you’re not good enough or something is wrong with you
Even when you know you did everything right but they still did it. You know your conscience is clear but those thoughts still creep in.
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The first, yes. The second. And all the rest after that are just because you're so desperate for love that you think that's how it should be.
I'm desperate for love? Hmmm. I'll come back to that.What i meant is people who love you don't blatantly lie to you. Now i'll fully admit sometimes it's easier to tell a little white lie than to EXPLAIN the truth witch is why so many people lie. But this is where there are misunderstandings. Sometimes what one person may consider a harmless white lie someone else may not. And the very act of the lying they may considering a deep beyrayalI've said before i detest liars but if i cut everyone in my life who's wvwr told me a lie i wouldn't have anyone in my life. Does this bother me? You just learn to let things go. I mean for example my sister is late all the time one day we were going to meet at my place to go somewhere. My sister is tbe type of person to always have too many irons in the fire. So when she didn't arrive on time i wasn't surprised. I went to her place which ia only a 10 minute drive. Figured i'd catch her just getting home from a previous engagement or getting ready to come over to my place. She was neither. So i texted her and she said she was just getting home she'd be right over. Well i waited 5 to 10 minutes and she wasn't. she wasn't home or just getting home. She was running late as usual but didn't know i had went to her house to save her a trip to mine. So she thought that she could play off she just got home to buy her more time. It's annoying but no ones getting hurt in this lie... just inconvenienced. Lol also if you added up the sum of my sister you couldn't find a nicer more caring, genuine person. This is why i say ya have to learn to let some lies go when there's no malicious intent. It goes against my nature but it just causes heartache if you take it more personal than it was intended.
Nope, not you desperate. I was adding to your comment about that and I guess projecting a bit. I understand what you're saying about the lack of malicious intent from your sister.
Should I not be talking so much rubbish, sir?
@SydneySentinel It was (give or take a word or two) a direct quote from one of my favourite (80's) movie... every now and then I give an answer where I realise the only person that appreciates it is myself, I'm a bit weird like that lol
Oh really? What movie is it?
@SydneySentinel One of my first housemates when I moved to University was a connoisseur of 80's movies, so Ferris Beuller, Heathers, Bill & Ted's etc were essential watching for my first year (and I wonder why I never graduated!! lol), but the one I remember most was Pump up the Volume and thats where it comes from.
I've neve seen it! Lol
He broke his promise. I felt it.
Yes this is a physical pain. I forgot the exact chemicals but yes, there has been a report of a death from a 'broken heart'
It's almost an atmospheric reverberation
Noo! I'm super serious! This is a real deal!www.heart.org/.../is-broken-heart-syndrome-real
I'm sorry ❤
Don't be, I got over it years ago, but I appreciate it
Well I'm glad to hear that