I can think of multiple times in my life where God used my desire for men to control me.
I remember I should have gotten an A- in my religion class but I had a crush on my classmate and worked extremely hard to impress him by studying extra hard for our class and I got an A+ in the class.
For another class, I also got an A+ cause I had a crush on a guy who came from the country I was studying in my class and I spent 7 years learning about his culture before I took the course so I got an A+ in that class too.
And than I tried to impress the guy I like by becoming a published author and now I have over 50 book outlines and 25 - 50 study projects on standby. Because of my desire to date a guy, I blossomed in my career as an author.
Than I watched a stressful tv series cause I had a crush on the male lead actor and that motivated me to get ideas for my self-help books by reading novels and watching fictional movies. This solved my problem of not having access to the university library to do research, when I graduated. Before my crush, I never thought of using fictional stories for advice for my self-help books because I never had the motive to watch a fictional movie to its completion.
I also developed patience through training because I thought I would need patience if I married my crush and had kids and now my patience has brought me closer to God by teaching me to respect others.
And even the last job I got, I started working there cause I had a crush on a guy I knew and I thought I would need a job if I wanted guys to date me. I also thought I would need income to start my own family and that motivated me to stay at my job when people were quitting because of CoVid. But eventually, I got laid off.
When it came to coming up with an image for my book, I realized a symbolic painting I created about romantic love in high school could be used for my book title page and had I hired a professional artist to do the same drawing, it would have cost me over $30,000. The motive for my artwork was that I was contemplating the meaning of love for Christians and came up with a bunch of symbols for my art work which I made in 2001.