“Life is divided into the horrible and the miserable.” – Woody Allen
Nobody would blame former pornstar Mia Rose if she embraced this cynical statement after the year she suffered through. Oh, think you had a rough year? Let’s compare notes, shall we?
In 2015, Mia’s home was robbed and her car was stolen, she suffered through a botched abortion, watched her fiancé walk out the door as she sat bleeding and crying in the tub, lost a devoted canine friend by the name of Alexander, and was the victim of identity theft. As the rotten cherry on this depressing parfait, don’t forget that Mia was also homeless at one point in her life.
However, at some point during my two-hour talk with Miss Mia Rose, I started to realize something vital: Life can be unforgiving and brutal but despite it all, smiles and laughter are in there…somewhere. Her brutal honesty and openness was not only refreshing, but it was bound to eradicate assumptions and pre-conceived notions concerning former pornstars. Amid her hard-hitting words and occasional tears, one spots a deep-rooted desire to survive; a hardness sheltering a vulnerable core that we all have.
A great human interest story can only be found when there's conflict and abundant emotion. It ain't no goddamn fairytale; it's life in all its despair and, ultimately, hope.
GaG: So, wow…tough year, huh?
Mia: “Actually, last year started out being the happiest of my life. I got engaged to my boyfriend, who I'd known for 10 years before we started dating, and everything was going great. I even got a $10,000 donation on my stream. But then just everything went to shit— My BMW got stolen, my house was broken into, and my fiancé left after he found out I was pregnant. Then my identity got stolen and my dog died and…it was just awful. It just turned into the worst fucking year and I was like, ‘Is this real life? It just can’t be, right?’”
GaG: Your fiancé left when he found out you were pregnant?
Mia: “Yeah, well, I got pregnant and got an abortion but something went wrong. I just remember seeing all this blood running out of me; they said there’d be some blood but I was thinking, ‘there shouldn’t be this much blood.’ I don’t know what went wrong but it was really bad. And then one night I was literally in the tub with all this blood pouring from me and then my fiancé…he just left. Walked right out. And I really loved this guy, you know? I’d known him for a long time and we were living together for a while and everything. But after he left I think things just got worse. As if they could possibly get any fucking worse.”
GaG: With all this going on, what have you been doing to keep your mind off the bad things? What do you like to do these days?
Mia: “Oh, I’ve just been playing a lot of games and streaming, though I find it hard to stream these days. I was really into WoW (World of Warcraft) but I burned myself out on that; now I’m into Rainbow Six Siege and I’ve been playing the shit out of it. I also loved The Division beta and that’s going to be my favorite game, I just know it. So yeah, I’ve been playing a lot and I think video games have been keeping me going, because I’m trying so hard not think about all the bad shit. I don’t think I’ve been handling it all quite as well as I have been, but my new dog has helped a lot, too. His name is Ben and I just hope he stays okay.
I’ve also spent a lot of time with my friend Emily. She’s a 13-year-old with leukemia and she’s always in the hospital and doesn’t have any family. We talk every day on Skype and I swear, what this girl has given me over the past year or so…it’s amazing. She’s just incredible. She even did this video for me and it makes me cry every time I see it:”
GaG: Moving on to happier things, what’s your take on the current dating scene? Is it easier for Millennials to meet people these days?
Mia: “You know, it’s just getting way too easy…which actually makes it harder, if that makes any sense. Now you have so many ways to weed out the people you don’t want, so many ways to try to find the perfect person that’s the exact right fit for you. But how the fuck do you even know that’s what you really want? I mean, I went on Match and those ended up being some of the most miserable dates of my life. I tried telling them about what I’d done [porn] and I tried not telling them; doesn’t matter, didn’t work either way. It just sucked. We don’t seem to have any idea what we really want, even though we’ve got all these ways to communicate with each other now.
Like with our phones. I know I’m addicted to my phone and it sucks. I remember growing up in Alaska in a town of like 300 people and then, yeah, you had to just walk over to a friend’s house and if nobody was there, that’s it; you’re shit out of luck. That’s when people talked to each other and did things together, you know? I just…I don’t know. I wish it was easier. I actually get really nervous with phone calls; I mean I actually get social anxiety sometimes and it’s just so stupid.
We’re all so lonely. We all just want to find someone who makes us happy, that’s all.”
GaG: How do you feel about marriage? The GaG community is pretty split on the issue…
Mia: “Oh, I would love to get married. It’s just so sad now, though, you know? I actually think the way marriage was in the ‘50s was great. That’s because then you had to work things out; you didn’t really have a choice. You had to actually try and make it work because not everyone got divorced all the time. I actually proposed to my boyfriend and he said yes (even though it ended badly). I just love the thought of marriage; I think it’d be amazing to have someone who’s your best friend, who will always be there to support you. But because it’s so easy to get divorced, people aren’t taking this shit seriously anymore. They’re not taking it seriously and nobody seems to be trying too hard, either.
Yes, I’d like to be a housewife. I really would.”
GaG: And feminism…?
Mia: “Such bullshit. These feminists don’t even know what feminism is. They think they know so much about the topic but they have no fucking idea what the actual dictionary term is. It’s just so disgusting…fuck them. I’m a feminist but that’s because I actually know what that word means.”
GaG: If you were to give any sex advice to young inexperienced girls, what would it be?
Mia: “Oh my gosh, I could say so much about this. I actually have a little segment on my stream called Love Line; if you’re young and you want to ask me a question, please ask the question. Let me just say this: If I knew then what I know now, I’d be a lot better off. For example, sex for the first time isn’t going to feel good. Not one girl I’ve ever spoken to has said their first time is good; the second and third time it gets better but the first time is just shit. I’m actually torn on the topic of who should be your first…on the one hand, I think you should do it with a friend or someone you love, but then I think you should just do it with a stranger to get it out of the way, because it’s going to suck anyway. You’ll probably end up hating their guts. ‘laughs’
I still remember doing it for the first time and coming home and telling my mom I’d lost my virginity. I just remember being in so much pain and then my mom started crying with me. It wasn’t easy.”
GaG: And how about porn? Do people learn things they shouldn’t?
Mia: “Yeah, you know, it’s not anywhere near as good as it looks in the porn movies. It’s not glamorous and weird shit happens. People don’t know it but you’re going to be introduced to some weird smells and noises. If you’re doing anal, for example, yeah, you don’t even want to know some of the shit you’ll hear and smell. Now, I just can’t watch pro porn anymore; I’m like, ‘oh god, these girls are overdoing it.’ All I have to say is, don’t watch porn. It’s not going to help. It’ll probably just screw you up.”
GaG: And how’s about the always thorny “size” issue? Do you have the definitive answer?
Mia: “Yeah, it’s another reason not to watch porn. Guys get this fucked up idea of size. Look, they have to understand that the guys who do porn grew up next to some factory where there was some chemical spill or some shit. Girls, please remember that’s not the way dicks are. And yeah, I’m okay with normal-sized dicks; 6-7 inches is perfect to me and that’s it. Let’s just admit that ladies parts are ugly and boy parts can be small or big but it’s no big deal. I actually kinda like them when they’re soft, believe it or not!”
We’d like to thank Mia for her time and we appreciate the opportunity to deliver something with a little flavor. How many bland, boring Q&As exist? Reading them is kinda like eating dairy-free, fat-free vanilla ice cream without a single solitary sprinkle. This, however…well, this was something else entirely, was it not?
For more, follow her on Twitter and feel free to check her popular streaming activities on Twitch. Speaking of which, tune in tonight at 8 p.m. PST / 11 p.m. EST, when Mia and myself will be chatting about GirlsAskGuys (and other topics, I imagine). And don't forget to check out our most recent interview with lifestyle coach Cheyenne Bostock and stay tuned for more great chats in the very near future!