You know what it’s like to just barely meet the standards of X activity?
I feel as if I don’t really meet the standards of being a good girlfriend, and just barely. For me it’s similar
to that awkward transition at the age of 12 where I’m too tall for the kid rides but too short for the adult
rides at an amusement park. What makes it worse is it’s like there’s a roller coaster I’m really looking
forward to, it’s super fun looking and has nothing but great reviews. I finally get to the ride to get on but
I just barely reach the height requirement, by about an inch or two. The disappointment is just heavy
and it weighs on my heart, crushing any excitement I had for the ride at the time.
Then comes the thoughts, the worries and what-if game begins. What if I never grow that extra inch I
need to ride that ride? What if I end up having a growth spurt and become too tall to ride it? I’ll never be
able to enjoy that ride. That’s how I feel about my standards as a girlfriend- I’m trying to meet the
requirement and just barely fall too short.
Not in the aspect that I can’t “please” him or that I don’t listen. It’s just a generalized feeling that sits on
my heart, and no matter how hard or deep I dig to get that feeling out it just gets embedded in further. I
wanna know everything about everyone, and my boyfriend is someone I wanna know everything about,
even the things I don’t wanna know-I needa know.
I don’t wanna know if he likes a finger up his bum during masturbation but it’s a fact I wanna know. I like
to meet people’s standards. Not to please people but I see these standards as GOALS. Once I reach
these standards, I can surpass them.
If your standard is your dream girl HAS to make you laugh, then I can Ace that no problem.
If your standard is your friend has to be a good listener, that’s something I can do, but I won’t be able to
pass that with flying colors. I’m a good listener but I also love to talk, so sometimes the two clash.
Standards aren’t something I see as negative because almost everyone has them. I love being able to
meet someone’s standards, I feel special.
People tend to fall into roles, or follow the same path, creating a beaten track for ourselves. We place
ourselves into these positions of being the “loud one” or being the “flirty one” etc.
With meeting people’s standards I can be the loud one, the flirty one, the sweet one or the shy one.
Everybody else is doing the same thing, I’m doing my own thing. Even if my own thing means fulfilling
someone else’s standards because I want to, it’s still my own thing.
Society says “meet my standards” but then they say “you don’t need to meet people’s/societies
standards”. Well I’m gonna meet peoples standards because it’s who I am.
I am the flirty one, I am the loud one, the sweet one.
Meeting these standards don’t mean that I’m changing myself, it just means I’m showing different sides
Back to what I began with, I have standards for being a girlfriend. I need to know a lot about my SO, I
need to look good for them every-day, I need to make sure I don’t embarrass them. I could go on and on
about it but I won’t. These are my standards and I still feel as if I’m not reaching them. Whenever I have
my heart set on a standard I wish to reach, I work at it until I do. When I fail to reach one, my heart
I will feel as I’m being grasped in an Iron Maidens hold, my lungs will be stressed and I can’t breathe. It
eventually brings on panic attacks if it keeps up, but this won’t stop me.
I will reach my standard, I will surpass my goal and be satisfied until I find another standard I must reach.
You personally, you don’t need to meet anyone’s standards but your own.
I typically have lower standards when it comes to my friends. Just be a decent human being and we’ll be
good. That’s my standard for friendship.
That’s my goal for me as a human within my life.
What’re the standards you try to reach?