I've recently came to terms that I'm also attracted to woman it's something I've struggle with since I was a child but never told anyone. I was always confused and thought because I'd never seen it before as a child "why can't girls be with girls" I just thought it wasn't a thing.
As I got older I started getting attracted to girls as well as boys but never acted on it and just admired them in my head. I remember a couple times I'd go in to hug a girl friend and I'd have the instinct to kiss her one time I nearly did and the girl didn't react to it well and called me a freak and other cruel words.
It's no one's business but mine.
There's always been rumors about my sexuality but I don't feel it's anyone's business but mine, I've never heard a straight person go around telling everyone they're straight because no one cares so why should anyone care what I prefer in my bed?
I've never dated anyone but right now I have a crush on a guy and I worry he'll judge me and so will my family as I've grown up with all woman and I don't want to be seen as different from who I was before if I came out, I want people to like me for me also I feel my relationships with female friends will feel uncomfortable if I did because they'll feel weird around me and think I fancy them or something.
What made me realise I like women as well as men
Strange one I know but one day I was on instagram and a porn video came up by accident, I'd never seen lesbian porn before let alone porn, I used to be very innocent and prudish before I found porn but I instantly got extremely aroused and it felt right and I wanted it for myself. Also last year I was watching I'm a celebrity get me out of her (a British reality program) and I started to have a massive crush on Vanessa White from the girl band, The Saturdays ⬇⬇⬇⬇⬇⬇⬇⬇ I just think she a gorgeous goddess. Honestly, I don't even like her music but just WOW.
I don't want the stigma put on me and I don't get labels
I've noticed a lot of people assume bisexual people just like to sleep around or just want to be different and special when in truth I'm a shy, virgin, who votes conservative. If I end up with a guy I don't want people saying "oh so you are straight you were just going through a phase" no I still like women I just happened to fall for a man. That's what being bisexual is, I'm not a lesbian, there's a difference but at the same time I hate labels and I don't understand why people identity and express themselves though their sexual preferences. No one's cares, it's 2018. You're nothing out of the ordinary, you're not special, you're just another person going through the same shit as everyone else.
P.s. This is my first myTake so sorry if it's bad and sorry as well if there's any grammar or spelling mistakes, I have disylexia #boxticker