If you’re in a toxic relationship, I’m begging you to GET OUT NOW!!
Examples of Toxic Relationships
• Being mentally/physically abused
• Being threatened/forced to stay
• Being taken advantage of
• Someone saying they’ll change, but haven't
• Someone forcibly keeping you from loved ones
• Being constantly backstabbed/cheated
• Feeling unsafe when around someone
• Being asked/told to do something you dont want to do just so you can get something you want in return
I took a class with this class clown. He annoyed me sooo much. He wasn’t hot, but he was somewhat cute. And he kept trying to flirt with me but i just wasn't interested.
He turned out to be my next door neighbor. After getting to know him more, We started hanging out a bit that Christmas break. I fell more and more for his goofy, humorous side, and well eventually we ended up dating.
The first couple months was good. But then everything escalated so quickly. He knew I wanted to wait til marriage to do sexual things. However, I guess he wasn't gonna back down.
He was my first boyfriend and i was happy being in a relationship. But I was so naive. One day he goes, “So if i have to wait til marriage to have sex with you, can I at least get oral from some randoms?” I was speechless. I was like, “wait what?”
I honestly dont think i ever answered this question. But he went and did things with other girls anyways. I found out from my friends... and enemies.
He denied doing these things and told me that there were things I could do to assure he stayed faithful. First, He had me strip butt naked. Then he told me to bend over while he circled my body like i was some kind of nude exhibit. Then he told me to sit up and that he needed to finger me to make sure i was wet and tight.
I didn't want to give in, but the pressure got to me. He pushed me against the brick wall of my neighbors house... But it wasn't just simple fingering. He wanted to see how much a virgin could take. I was in so much pain.
He took futher advantage of my naiveness and constantly pressured me into more doing things. So one day he walked me into the woods where he said he wanted to try something.
He started kissing me then took off his shirt and layed it on the ground. I don't know if i was more surprised that he started randomly stripping or that he layed a white tee on a dirt ground haha. So he layed me down on top of the shirt and started kissing me. I wasn't sure what to expect by i was just so hypnotized by how great of a kisser he was.
He then paused. Said he loved me. Then said... if we’re going to continue waiting til marriage... you have to at least let me “see if it can fit”. I kept debating and he kept throwing reasons at me why he needed to “try me”. He kept saying it wasn't sex, just a test to see if it could fit.
I don't know it just kept going on and on and on and he just wouldn't stop asking. And i gave in and said “ok but only see if the tip can go in”... but then he thrusted instead, repeatedly trying to shove his whole dck in.
Afterwards, I just layed their crying since i had practically lost my virginty. He kept asking “Did i hurt you? Are you okay? You said i could get in at least 1 thrust right?” I was just so traumatized. I was speechless.
He stood me up. Told me to get dressed. I just held my head down and started walking home. It was so painful to walk home. It was raining and I was wobbling home like a duck.
Next day he tells me, “You know, you're not a virgin anymore now. So you may as well keep on having sex with me. You dont want me to have to do things with other girls, right? I mean, you do want me to marry YOU right?”
Gosh, I hated how in love I was. And him being my first made me cling to him even more. It was an odd connection i felt to him. Lets just say i gave in to some stuff. He changed me.
I don’t even want to go into detail of what all ended up happening. But basically He continued to cheat on me with both friends/enemies. He supposedly knocked my friend up and denied it. He told me if I were to ever get pregnant that I needed to drink bleach.
We broke up during the whole friend being pregnant thing. But months later i took him back. I told him i still didn't want to do oral. However, one day he whipped out his dck while i sat next to him. He kept begging for it. In the middle of me saying “No”, he slammed my head down on his dck. It hit the back of my throat and i was in pain the rest of the day.
So the next time he asked again, i pretended I wanted to do so. I teased him as i licked down his body. Then i whipped out his dck. Kissed the tip. Then took a huge bite out the shaft.
Lets just say My teeth marks were left in his dck for about a day. He was pissed and chased me through the house. Thank goodness my mom was around to Save me because i was about to get choked to death. Hey, he never asked for me to go down again tho...
He told me he wanted to try doggystyle sex. I thought he meant vaginal from behind but he slammed his dck against my anal hole. Its not like it went in bt it still hurt. I shoved him away. I was in pain for a whole week. I would never purposely do anal. Guess this just made me hate that form of sex even more.
One day i caught him selling weed. He held the knife to my throat and forced me to sniff the bag. He also knew i had asthma and didn't need to be around smoke. Apparently he had smoked a blunt and held the smoke in his mouth. He forced me to kiss him and he blew it in my mouth. I felt like i was dying. I had to run home and get my inhaler.
Then there was that time He held a gun to my tummy when I finally tried to leave him. Smh, If it werent for him going to military school, I wouldve never escaped him.
Years later we reconnected and i tried to be cool with him. I tried to tell him how he hurt me years ago. He laughed in my face and told me i shouldn't have been so naive and that i was the easiest thing he ever scored.
Im not asking anyone for pity. I know some people feel i deserved this. I do blame myself for being so naive. I just don’t want to hear that someone went through this... or something worse... IM BEGGING YOU GUYS/GIRLS TO GET OUT WHILE YOU CAN!!