Growing up and even now, I've seen so many in amazing relationships. It makes me happy to see someone care, love and trust their significant other. Just a couple years ago, I wanted a relationship. However, I realized it's not for me. My friends and family are confused and even concerned, but they'll never know the reason why.
Coming to reality, I knew I would never be physically good enough for a relationship. That's okay and I'm content with it! Now I know what you're thinking. This is just some pretty to average girl that has semi-low self esteem, wants attention fron people to pity her, compliment her and tell her she'll find someone.... That's not me. You could tell me I'm not good enough for a relationship and I'd applaud and thank you for saying something many won't say. It's the truth and people don't have the guts to say it!
I'm currently 250 pounds. I bet that pretty to average girl left your mind lol. Most will say just lose the weight. I am and weight does play a slight role in my decision. No one wants to be in a relationship with a slob who is shaped like Shrek and I can't blame them! It's common sense. However, my decision won't change even when I reach a healthy weight.
Once I'm skinny, it won't change that I am covered in dozens of stretch marks, have broad shoulders, small hips, stubborn love handles, saggy boobs, low nipples, dozens of small scars all over my body, belly fat, strawberry skin everywhere, skin discoloration, inner thighs that are nearly black, an extremely dark vagina, potentially loose skin, etc. Scary right lol? Now, I know people will say these things are natural. Just because it's natural, doesn't mean it's attractive. I know men don't mind imperfections, but that only goes so far. I know women have SOME of these, but they are pretty much unnoticeable and aren't at such a gross magnitude. Men can't help what they are attracted to in their preferences in women. I still have yet to see a woman that has as many issues as I do, especially in my age range. I see women and even looked at women in amateur porn, and they are all perfect! Even if a woman is overweight, has stretch marks or saggy boobs, there are so many men that will be attracted to them. Ladies please remember this. You're all so beautiful and your own worst critic! You look so different in other people's eyes, and I mean that in a great way!
We all know relationships and intimacy go hand in hand. However the thought of showing a guy my body makes me nauseous knowing he'll instantly go soft and run for the hills. I wouldn't blame him lol! I've always told myself that if a guy tries to pursue me, I will reject him. Not because I'm not interested, but because he can easily do better. I know it's a great favor and I've done this a couple times. He'll look back and wonder what the hell he was thinking. Even better, he'll find a beautiful girl and it makes me feel good that I wouldn't have held him back from finding someone he deserves. Even IF I decided to be in a relationship, I know the guy would cheat on me. Most girls say they'd be mad, move on and say the guy missed out on an amazing girl like them when they are cheated on. I'd simply high five and be proud of the guy for finally coming to his senses that he can do better lol!
Well there you have it. Why I will stay single and a virgin forever. I'm happy and content with my decision. It's a win win situation in mine and a guy's end. Thank you so much for reading and future input! (:
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