I’m a 23 year old crossdresser from the US. My “hobby” started when I was 4 years old. I sneaked into my sister’s bedroom to play hide and seek and I found this dress spread on her bed. I had this unexplainable urge to close the door and to put the dress on. It felt exciting and unexplored. I looked in a mirror and felt so cute when I saw myself in this retro dress. I would continue doing this over the next 10 years every time my sister wasn’t home. She’s 3 years older than me. When I turned 15 she left for college where she stayed in a sorority. She left a lot of her clothes behind during the week, so I had an excellent occassion to try them on. The excitement that I first felt wore off after several years of doing this almost daily and it made place for an urge that caused anxiety when left unfulfilled.
When I was 16 I started growing my hair out. I didn’t only wanted to get dressed up indoors, I also wanted to be more myself outdoors. I started ordering special conditioners and more delicate shampoos that contained etheral oils and argan oil. At the same time I discovered how important skin texture is for a woman. With a manly, oily skin I would never make a pretty girl when dressed. So I started moisturizing and exfoliating thrice a week. I also started applying tea tree oil to my skin daily. Soon, I started to get brighter skin and a more relaxed sense of self.
Over the next years I never got a hair cut and my hair started getting longer and longer. My skin was soft as a woman’s skin. I shaved twice daily and I started consuming hops flowers which contain phytoestrogens, herbal forms of estrogen-mimicking compounds. My nipples started getting more sensitive, my areolae started getting puffier and I developed two small discs under my nipples on each side of my chest. In a matter of a year and a half of consuming hops flowers every day, I developed a little under a full A cup. I now had a reason to start buying Victoria Secret bralettes and panties. The fabric of women’s underwear feels so much better than the fabric of men’s underwear.
I also started painting my nails with clear polish and having mani-pedis regularly.
At 21 I had my first girlfriend. She is a bi girl so she didn’t mind me being feminine. When I met her parents for the first time they could hardly tell I am a guy.
Over the year and a half I have started waist training. I have now developed an hour glass figure. I do squats for a bigger butt.
We went to an exposition last month and one guy grabbed my bum without realising that I was a guy, till my girlfriend said ‘he’s mine already’.
I have become the sissy that I have always wanted to be.
Me and my girlfriend can afford our own place because I escort. Last week, I got fucked by 15 clients which averages over 2 a day. Most are married men who love ‘chicks with dicks’ .
At my job no one knows. I do regularly flirt with male colleagues. My girlfriend loves to see me being devored by a real man, while she watches for her pleasure.
Most of my clients come for getting a good blowjob.
My crossdressing has allowed me to let my gender ambiguity out. I now get to live as both a guy and a girl.
The sex with my girlfriend is also much better. We have lesbian sex and straight sex. Sometimes I fuck her like a macho man, sometimes I fuck her like a kinky lipstick lesbian. I love it when we suckle on each others nipples while I rub her clitoris.
Life is good!
Hope my story served for some other feminine boys / girls and those who love to admire and date us.