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I'm of legal age now and this article will discuss things I've done in the past which, at the time, were illegal, at least where I live, nude pictures from minors always count as child pornography. If you are offended by this, please don't read what I wrote. Thank you.
Sexting. Merriam-Webster defines it as "the sending of sexually explicit messages or images by cell phone". I'd like to share some of my experiences with you.
I started sexting when I was around 14 or 15. I was extremely insecure about myself and my body and was on Omegle a lot, where basically everyone is trying to swap nudes (=nude pictures). My parents had told me multiple times that I shouldn't sext, I knew what it was and I knew that it was illegal, which made it so incredibly tempting for me.
Eventually, I caved, and I remember the first time I sent someone a naked picture I hated it so much and the guy didn't handle it well eihter. I always looked very mature, so he assumed that I was 18 and freaked out when I told him (after he had asked me) that I was only 15.
My later experiences entailed around 1000 guys or more, with whom I at least exchanged two pictures (one-time contact, I only had more than one sexting session wiht about 50 guys). I know, this sounds horrible, and looking back, it was. I am ashamed of it and don't mention it in relationships of mine unless someone asks me about it.
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#1 My sexual horizon is bigger now
However, after some reflection, I realised that my youth hasn't been shaped by these experiences, but that my sexual horizon has been extended through sexting to a wide extent. Again, sounds weird but bear with me.
As time went on and I got older, around 16 or 17, I leaned more towards older guys, between 35 and 50. I only sexted with people I didn't know, with the exception of a boyfriend of mine, who I exchanged these types of images with before meeting him (crazy Generation Zler, I know).
#2 I crave an actual relationship that doesn't rely on sexting
And I learned a lot from these guys. I learned that what I'm looking for isn't sexual satisfaction, but a deep connection. I learned that to enjoy sex (I'm a virgin so this is the only experience I've got), I will have to have this deep connection first, because I was only able to ENJOY WHAT I WAS DOING fifteen times in total. Ten of these were with someone I truly loved, but couldn't be together with, three times with a very experienced guy I didn't even remotely find attractive but who wrote these amazing sex stories, and twice with people I trusted deeply.
Maybe my pictures are out there, maybe even someone I used to sext with now uses G@G. But I learned and understood that what I was looking for in men doesn't exist. That whatever I thought I needed and wanted isn't what I really need and want. And I'm extremely happy about that.
#3 Real people deserve my time and energy
I fell in love. It hurt to know that I had wasted so much time and energy in my life sending other people nudes while this one guy was with me through it all, right by my side. And yeah, I feel like sexting ruined some parts of our potential relationship, but with him it felt right, it's the guy I enjoyed sexting the most with and who hurt me the most too because I trusted him so much.
Can you love someone you met online?
This all circles back to whether you can love someone you met online or not. I'm so afraid of falling in love with the wrong person that when I did I closed my eyes to it.
And when my feelings came back, four times as strong as they were initially, I realised that I no longer want his body, but his soul. That's what sexting has taught me. That I don't need sex, I don't need orgasms, I need actual attention and feeling like someone loves me for more than just my body. I now know that there are tons of different things people find attractive out there, and won't be as insecure during my first time (having sex).
What has sexting taught you?
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