At the age of 23 with two other small relationships under my belt I began dating a 30 yo women. After four weeks she was pregnant, after 3 months we where married and around 6 months after that we had a beautiful healthy baby boy.Now 11 years in to our marriage I have developed a lust for other women. I was somewhat of a late bloomer and now at 34 and now 10 years into working out very regularly I'm getting attention more than ever which my wife as a 40 yo women is very aware of and it is a constant issue almost every time we go into public. I'm very sexual of course I'm a red blooded male and for the most part so is she but as I have learnt women can become consumed with daily chores, a 10 yo son and life and feeling sexy especially with some weight issues and a c section ''shelf'' can be hard to feel for her. But despite that we on average make love 3-4 times a week which at the moment and for the last year maybe more is predominantly in the shower as it can be hard to find some space with a young boy in the house and no family members in our town for date nights. However we mix it up as well as we can with candles and sexy music in the bath room to try and add to the vibe and even try things like making love against the wall in our walk in wardrobe or mid afternoon say we are napping but end up on the floor in the bedroom so the bed doesn't make a noise and our son is on Fortnite sex. Despite this I can't help but fantasise about the women I see that notice me, there different body types, hair and skin tones which I have never experienced. It's to the point where I can't wait for my sexual desire and drive to be gone so I can have some peace and be faithful in mind to the women who helped me become the man I am today. I feel bad that I constantly need the sexual attention of my wife.
This is the first time I have ever communicated this in any form so I'm hoping this will help in some small way.