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Is it wrong I kinda want to get raped?

Before you over react, please let me explain.

I was groomed by my step father when I was 8-9 years old. This means, that he was preparing to rape me. He would put his hands in my pants to "check to make sure I had nickers on". He was blind so it was a pretty good excuse for tricking a young girl into trusting him. Thankfully though, my mum left him before he could do anything worse then just touching me.

This has stuck with me all my life. Ever since then, I have almost purposely put my self in dangerous situations. I never thought, oh I'm going to find a creep and tell him to rape me. What I did was find any guy I saw as being creepy and pervy and go along with what ever they said. I always got out of there just before they did anything though. The thrill I got from doing this was simply amazing.

I've almost become addicted and now I even try to set up situations where I am in protential danger. I've gone to the darkest scariest parts of towns late at night, wearing clothing that made me look sexy. I've met up with desperate creeps on the Internet and worn cute girly clothing. I've even set up social media accounts and pretended to be a young girl just to make the creepiest of guys talk to me.

I have created a fantasy where I get raped by a creepy, overly friendly guy. Not the kind of rape where a big hard guy comes and brutally rapes me with a knife to my neck. But by a sweet neighbourly guy who could do no harm.

The moment I realised what I was doing (because up until then I was doing what came normal to me) was when I watched "The Lovely Bones" where Stanley Tucci kills a little girl. I got so hot from this film, and now I can't help but think about how much I want to get raped!

It's even effecting my love life. Every time there is a rape scene in a film, my partner takes the piss out of me and calls me "dirty", because he knows it turns me on! He just can't understand why I'm like this.

Here is a picture of my dream guy from "The Lovely Bones."
Is it wrong I kinda want to get raped?


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Most Helpful Guys

  • All these people saying it is role play are well meaning but completely wrong.

    You are engaging in behavior and activities that are going to get you raped, killed, or raped with an STD it is NOT going to be what you thought you wanted, in fact, it may just end your life forever.

    Every negative behavior or desire we have in our hearts is there because something healthy has been perverted.

    You trusted your pervert step father and he betrayed you. He took a young little girl's desire to be loved, to be someone's mate (As those desires were budding) and he raped your trust. Yes, he raped it.

    Sex is good, and it feels good. It is powerful- nothing in life is more powerful. He had the scent of lust, the desire for it when he fondled you, and your young mind no doubt went to sexual areas. I know of this because the same things happened to me. I thought I was somehow special or smart, or privileged, because people were f*cking me.

    The truth was, what should have been a healthy sex drive was shattered and destroyed, and I ended up wanting things that were destructive. And I wanted them so bad I went out and got them, and almost ended up with AIDS.

    Now that I look back at it, I still kind of want those things, but I know they are not healthy.

    My word of advice is not to "Roleplay". Your desire to be treated like an object- like nothing of value- will only grow.

    On the contrary, I have never met you but I know beyond a doubt you are MORE valuable than all of the treasure on this earth or any other. You do not deserve to be raped, you are precious. If you were here I would hold you in my arms and tell you that.

    My final advice is to ask Jesus into your heart, and then ask Him for healing. If this is not real nothing will happen. But if it is real, the Creator of your soul will beginning to have a personal relationship with you, and you will begin a road to healing. Without God, I would be lost. I would be dead of a drug overdose because I was too miserable to live, or dying of AIDs.

    You are a beautiful human being who should be treated with love, respect, and dignity. Not offered to filthy perverts who are incapable of ever actually loving you for who you are.

    • This is the most uplifting and inspiering things anyone has ever said to me, thank you. I know that this is wrong, this is why I want it to go away. I want it to stop and I want to be normal. I want to do things that will please god and Jesus. I don't want to do things that I will regret I want to do things I am proud of. Thank you for this, its just what I needed. I really really appreciate you takeing the time to answer me. God bless you x

    • I saw this question and even though you had already selected MHO I wanted to lift you up. You are a beautiful, pure treasure, who is a little bit wild- and for the right man that is like icing on a cake. Your spontaneity will be a reason for him to want you in his thoughts- the right man. Please... Seek Jesus, God tells us in the Bible that we have not, because we don't ask... I beg of you to ask God for wisdom, literally, "God, can I have wisdom? Can I have wisdom about my situation?" And He will give it to you. Always trust your instincts with men, learn to look at men and be able to discern who they really are- God will help you with this, too. One day, as you search for God, and live life rightly, God will bring a man into your life who your heart, and your instincts will both agree, is the man you are going to bless beyond measure- and he in turn will bless you. Be not ashamed of your desires for him, God put that there for you to explore.

    • Again thank you! I'm going to go seek Jesus

  • Rape fantasies are not uncommon. You can certainly role play - it can be very fun with the right girl. Just establish a 'safe word' in case it goes too far.

    I like to make a game out of the 'safe word.' I comprise a list of things of 5 things I would like to do to a girl. She is allowed to view the list one the condition that she must not use the safe word for anything on that list, but she is allowed to cross one thing off of it. Haven't had anyone view the list yet, though, but then this isn't something I do very often..

    • Thank you for takeing me seriously, your the only one! This is by far the best answer any one has given me. Though I have already tried this many times with my other half... and he's not quite what I need. He dosent know how to "rape" me in a way that dose anything for me

    • yeah, it takes some nerve, but he needs to understand that the safe word is not for you, it's for him. Until you say it, it should be assumed that the screams of pain and sobs of shame are just how you are expressing your pleasure.

    • Thank you for explaining it that way... I think this is just what I need to say to him!

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  • With your background, I seriously suggest counseling. I was also molested by a relative and it can seriously mess you up. I fought the idea of counseling forever, but when I finally broke down and tried it due to mounting panic disorder, it wasn't as bad as if thought it would be.

    This book, though I don't love the title, was helpful to me: Surviving Childhood Sexual Abuse: Practical Self-help For Adults Who Were Sexually Abused As Children www.amazon.com/.../ref=cm_sw_r_awd_JQIqwbNMGRP2S

    • Thank you very much x

  • I can assure you that being raped is not a pleasant experience. If it is just that 'fun' to you... go wandering around late at night in a seedy parking lot. I'm sure eventually, eventually, your dream will come true. I hate to be that way, but when you got girls being gang-raped by groups of men in India, and then we have Sarah... wants to be raped... loves the idea of it in fact. Please understand that your fetish is not normal and yes, you should seek help.

  • I'd like to try rape role play, with someone I like of course, with my consent.

    It's totally different but I also like the idea of rape. But i don't take it as far as you. It's just a fantasy that hopefully will come true with someone I trust.

    I'll never put myself in danger. The idea of an unattractive person raping me scares me.

  • You need help! This isn't a healthy way to think.

    Assuming you aren't trolling. And if this is your idea of a joke, you still need help!

    • But saying I need help is easy, I dont know where to get help... This is why I am asking! I can't just go see a councellor for many different reasons and I dont know what to do

    • I don't know, umm.. In Seven Highly Effective Habits for Teens (something like that) they have a bunch of links and websites for people who need help. I don't know where my copy is at the moment though.

    • Well, thank you I will look into that. I really apreciate you takeing me seriously x

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  • A lot of people have some form of rape fantasy. That's usually something that is role-played in a safe environment with a trusted partner who you already know well.

    You may be overlooking the reality of what actual rape would truly be like. Rape is non-consensual by definition. You don't get to choose who rapes you, and you don't get to choose how they treat you or what the circumstances are. A rapist won't care what your limits are or what state they leave you in. They could give you an incurable STD, seriously injure you, maybe permanently- or even kill you.

    By putting yourself in these dangerous situations, you are risking not just the type of rape that you think you want, but also other types of rape, injury, and death. You have no way of knowing what these people might want to put you through. You are putting your health and safety at risk in a very serious way.

    You definitely need to seek psychological help from a therapist or counselor in dealing with this.

  • well then.

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  • Carry on like this and you might not be around to ask us any further questions. Murder goes hand in hand with rape. You are playing a more dangerous game than you think!!

    • Oh I know, and this is what makes it so thrilling! I'm adicted to the adrenalin from it almost happening time and time again

    • It won't be quite so thrilling when you end up fighting for your life in hospital, or even dead. I had relatively simple day surgery a few weeks ago under a GA, but it hurt like fuck after. You could have a life time of pain, real bad pain!

    • and that's dangerous.

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  • YOU NEED SOME DAMN HELP!

    • If you can tell me how to get that help I will go get it! Its not as easy as going round with my hands out saying "I need help" Because nobody takes me seriously

  • You need some serious help, a lot OF HELP! This is not good.

  • I want to get raped! Mmmm, rape play take me down by the hair pin me tire me out til I can't fight anymore pull my jeans halfway down pin me to the dirty floor and rape me. While he pounding me on the floor hard I go limp and fantasize about get pulled into a truckers cab or bathroom just fcking pinning down all his weight on me and pounding me face down over and waits some and get back on me and keeps raping me or i'm stopping side by the highway to pee and someone trucker stops pushes me to the ground or back in my car and pulls pulls my jeans to my ankles spread my legs and make me watch him keep going in and out of me and again after that and leaves never gets caught My mom's boyfriend friend groomed me too

    • Is that what you really want or is you're just being a smart-ass because if that's what you really want then I might be able to help you

    • @nomandik - it's called rape baiting and it's a real thing. Before I knew it was a term I put myself in date rape situations in my college town surprising a lot of guy are decent and the worst was getting fingered after a football party. I was raped at 13 or more like didn't have a choice he just climbed on me pull my shorts to the side and took me but we were together for a while after it.

    • You had your virginity taken at 13 by force I'm sorry that happened to you

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  • Fantasies never stroke with reality ! Be careful, but considering you're talking about the wish to be raped means you're already aware something's wrong. Maybe you imagine missing personal attention, and rape seems for you a way to get that attention.

  • If you want to get raped so badly why don't you find somebody to do it for you since it's one of your fantasies I'm pretty sure you can find a guy willing to make that fantasy come a reality there are plenty of guys out there that will love to make that become a reality for you I'm one of them but it really wouldn't be rape it's just a fantasy that we both share and some people are into that type of thing

  • What you have a death wish or smthng? :p
    Crazy😝
    Like I get you I am into rape scenes and the incest a bit but I don t go expose myself to danger. :/

    • Incest huh?

    • @Jack32 what can I say :p I am not screwed up don t worry. And I don t have a past like her. It just turns me on sometimes.

  • You can role play such a scenario with a willing boyfriend but PLEASE PLEASE do not put yourself in harm's way with these fantasies, I assure you you will regret it! You can't have these fantasies or experience these pleasures if you DO get hurt, but you can still experience them with a willing and safe guy. just PLEASE don't put yourself in such situations anymore, I honestly fear for you.

  • If you want it, it's role play, not rape.

    • But presenting it this way feeds the legend that girls want to be raped. A VERY WRONG signal thus! You're REALLY hurting present and future rape victims' feelings and interests.

  • I agree rape fantasies are common. Most likely though if you go to seedy parts of town you will if only the guy holding a knife to your throat not... the happy go lucky rapist.
    Plus i would suggest not doing this to your partner. Males get incredibly hurt when their SO gets raped, even more so than the rapee'. If you need to be kinkier find a kinkier man and enjoy your time with bondage.

  • I understand where you are coming from. I was groomd by my brother growing up. I too have put myself in those situations and get turned on from watching a rape scene. No person that didn't go through what we did can say anything because they can't posopbly understand. I get raped weekly and it is still the one thing that makes me wet the most.

  • Whatever floats your boat I guess

  • Many women have rape fantasies. It's normal but society likes to hide this fact of life.

  • Not sure if this is troll question or not...
    Having fantasies about rape or getting dominated is one thing but actually wishing to get raped is quite twisted, so consulting someone about it is not such a bad idea

  • i need to find girls like you so i can rape them

    • I feel like I need to find guys like you so I can get raped by them ha ha xD

  • This sort of fantasy is relatively normal.

  • That's really hot,

  • so fucking narrow minded like the most...

    • Explain why you think I am narrow minded?

    • I hope you get " raped" by a hot guy, forcefully but not violently, so that you and the guy satisfy their rape fantasies that way.

    • @diegoD did i miss something?

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