Why am I turned on by the thought of my girlfriend (s) having sex with other men? Borderline cuckold?

[Anonymous]

So for a few years now I have realized that I am turned on by the thought of my gfs having sex with other men. But its not just other men in general, its alwas a guy that I think the girl would like more than me, so typically hed be more attractive, taller, nicer body, bigger dick, better at sex, etc. When I'm in the mood, this thought is a big turn on and 9/10 times this is the thought I get off to. But If I were to hear the girl talk about a celeb she thought was hot or some trait of a guy she liked, it would bug me. So while im in the mood and playing with myself its a turn on, but not so much when Its in the actual act with a girl. I wonder, how did this become a turn on for me? A little back story on my theory of how... Back in 2012 while I was depoyed overseas I had a girlfriend who I cared about very much and trusted, but she cheated on me while I was away and found out then. At the time, I was very angry and upset, and I think within a few days as I thought about it, it became a turn on.. a huge turn on for some reason. The very thought of her with another guy who was better than me in every way got me rock hard all the time and constantly had the urge to get off to it. I guess it didn't help that she told me she felt like it was ok what she did and said she would want me to watch her suck off another guy and fuck him. I imagine hearing all of this come from a girlfriend that I cared about so much was so much trauma for my brain to handle that it adapted and learned to like it instead of feeling hurt from it. I assume that this may be where the turn on came from, but not sure. To this day, the very thought of any of my exs and current girlfriend with another guy is a turn on. But I like it and I dont like it because Im only turned on by it when Im by myself, and actually a little irriated when the thought crosses my mind when Im in person with a girl. Im not sure if I would like to live out this fantasy, but a lot of older couples seem to really enjoy it.

[LaurenGrace]

Yeah you have a cuckold fanstasy. The step from fantasy to reality is a big step so chose wisely if you want to bring it up with your girlfriend and allow her some free pass's to fuck someone else or

perhaps get her to roll play it first to see how youd both feel about it
let her go out tell her to have fun (nosex) make up a story and when she comes home get her to confess she was a bad girl and fucked a hot guy she met at the gym and bumped into at the night club.

[Mr2kinky]

I've lived it out with my wife, but not necessarily with her fucking guys who were "bigger/better" then me... just guys she was yes to fuck... I loved her doing it then coming home and fucking me while she gave me all the details.

[MadeInAmerica]

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It's just something you find interesting I guess. Not for me though.

[SarahsSummer]

Tl:dr. Nothing borderline about you dude.

[AWiserFool]

There is no borderline about it... sorry, man

[Anonymous]

You could give it a shot and see what happens I'm a cuckold an I really enjoyed it