Should a sissy/feminized husband be a cuckold?

[wannabecuckold]

I've definitely been on the feminine end of the scale as long as I can remember. My first wife was well aware that I preferred to wear women's clothes and underwear right after we after we started dating. She was fine with it, just not all the time. She pegged me and towards the end of our relationship she cuckolded me too 😊 it was the hottest fucking thing when she would tell me about it!! My current wife has known that I prefer to wear women's clothes and underwear for nearly our entire 10 years together.. she gets embarrassed by me it seems but I was clear from the get go that I don't consider myself to be a real man.. she indulges me from time to time which I love but also isn't cool with my life choice all the time. I've had a hormonal imbalance my whole life and produce more estrogen than the average male and less testosterone and have a small erect penis at 4-4.5 inches hard but when its soft it retracts inside and looks like an odd vagina.. lol
I asked her if she would be ok with me taking estrogen and testosterone blockers to help me feel more balanced.. she said no the first time then I started taking them and she liked the way I was.. she is all I want in a female partner but I want her to want to sleep with other guys instead of me.. I've told her so.. she ignored it at first and has recently (in an almost joking manner) brought it up and said well, what if I like him more? I told her that she is free to feel whatever she wants about them but to just come home to me, she made a joke about getting pregnant by another guy and I said, well if I'm the one encouraging it then I am happy to raise her children no matter if they are mine or not! How else can I positively direct her towards real men?

[englisc]

Why would you take testosterone blockers? This stuff is obviously fucking up your relationships with your wife being embarassed by it for example, and usually in these cases the woman does lose respect for the husband and leave for another man.

It's dysfunctional. The reason you've probably developed this fetish is to deal with insecurities around your manhood, whether or not you realise that.

All of this stuff is probably linked to the hormonal imbalance as you know. Why not just fix that? If you were to get testosterone replacement therapy these feelings would probably go away over time and you could have a normal, healthy relationship with your wife.

[wannabecuckold]

The thing is, I hate the feeling of testosterone flowing in my system! I've never felt better inside as I do when I've been on my hormones (anti androgens and estrogen). I feel like a better person on them too!

[englisc]

How do you know if you've always had really low testosterone levels?

[wannabecuckold]

Doctors and I didn't have full puberty till I was 26

[englisc]

No what I meant was how do you know you hate testosterone if you've never had normal levels in your system?

[wannabecuckold]

I have surges of it and hate it

[Anonymous]

Those medicines have dangerous side effects! Have you considered an orchiectomy? I think that would help on all levels.

[wannabecuckold]

That is the root I will be going soon !

[Opinion Owner]

If she loves you, she’s going to want sex with you though. Do you not want any sex with her? I’m sure she loves playing with your cock!

[RebeccaSJ]

That does happen, I hear.

[Batuthekhan]

Encourage her, let her know that you want her to be completely fulfilled