I’ve been with my boyfriend for more than a year now but we haven’t gone full way and it’s my fault?
So, um, before I started dating my boyfriend I never had any sexual interactions with anyone or myself. I used to rub my vagina but I didn’t think it was in a sexual way. For the most part, I stay over his house (he lives with his parents and sister) and even though everyone is friendly and nice we rarely are alone. His parents bedroom is next to his so I never really feel comfortable with moaning or whatever and I’m terrified of someone coming in. I am generally pretty uncomfortable and I feel really weird with my body and even though my boyfriend is really patient and he’s taking things slow I feel like I’m disappointing him more and more everyday. He has fingered me once or twice but it didn’t feel good, it was uncomfortable and painful and I generally feel weird when he’s around that area. I really really want to evolve our relationship but at the same time I am terrified and always panic and give up. I don’t want to force myself do anything but I too want to experience our relationship in a deeper level. I have tried masturbating myself but it hasn’t really worked. I’m very afraid to touch my vagina, especially cause of my nails - they are not very long but I have a fear of them hurting my vagina and stuff. I am looking for some advice or explanation to get a better understanding of what could help my situation. Thank you very much for your time!
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