Girls, What you think about what happened to me?

Some months ago, in a girl's house, I got carried away and let's say I tried to force her to do something she did not want to do and my hands went to certain places of her body. Before you say anything, I know that I was doing something wrong, but I couldn't resist. The thing is that the girl grabbed my testicles and squeezed, pulled and twisted them violently. I lost my breath, fell to the ground and vomited. I lost consciousness for hours. When I woke up, the pain was terrible. My testicles swelled up to four times their normal size and turned black. I was in terrible pain. I had surgery to remove damaged tissue and the doctors repaired my left testicle, that had been ruptured, although due to the damage sustained it will not be able to produce any spermatozoa or testosterone. My right testicle had to be removed due to it having multiple ruptures. Now, when I try to ejaculate, is very painful and only drops of blood come out and I can't get an erection.
Why do women hit us in that part? Aren't you aware of the consequences? This girl destroyed me as a man, phisically: Deprived from testosterone my muscles are losing mass and they will atrophy. Also, my body is losing bone density. This puts me at risk of developing osteoperosis. A so-called "woman's" disease. Both of these conditions eventually become life-threatening. T
And she destroyed me psychologically: I feel emotional devastated, I suffer from clinical depression and I'm thinking about suicide.
Do you think is fair what this girl did to me? Even if I had raped her, a vagina is meant to be penetrated by a penis. Physically, it wouldn't be so terrible. She would have remained a woman. But the testicles are not made to be abused in this way. The are to be cared for as life givers.
Have any of you done anything similar to a man? Would you do it? Do you think what happened to me was fair?
Girls, What you think about what happened to me?
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