I used to watch bizarre porn?

[Anonymous]

Hey, I started watching porn at a very young age and kept going until I was like 22 years old. I watched some crazy and disgusting stuff that I still feel guilty of. I would actually never try anything weird like that when having sex and I don’t know why I even got turned on in the first place by such things but well I did get turned on although all that was just wrong and disgusting. I still have a very high sex drive and get turned on very easily and I hate it! I get horny at work or when I do normal things like housework and it just won’t leave me until I satisfy myself I feel like a damn pervert! I feel so guilty I wish I was a normal girl like no one used to watch porn like I did and at a very young age too! and that makes me feel different when I watched porn I wasn’t my usual self I was always looking for the hardcore videos because other porn just wouldn’t do it for me and when I was done I felt disgusted by the videos like wth was I watching?

[Being_a_good_Indian]

Having higher levels of estrogen in the body promotes vaginal lubrication and increases sexual desire. It's completely normal for your libido to fluctuate and for there to be points of time — days, weeks, months, years where your sex drive is higher than usual. Usually, a higher sex drive is absolutely nothing to be worried about. Sexual guilt is a negative emotional response associated with the feeling of anxiety, guilt or shame in relation to sexual activity. It is also known as “sexual shame”. I can understand your concern. Hope it answers your questions. Any queries?

[Asker]

It got to the point where masturbating 3 times a day was normal sometimes I masturbated up to 5 times while watching porn and it really f*cked up my mind like when you’re aroused everything else in your brain shuts down and you just focus on getting pleasure it doesn’t matter what you watch and when you’re satisfied all the guilt comes crashing down on you why didn’t I feel that way when I was just watching porn? like am I secretly a bad person or just a pervert although I can’t control all that

[Asker]

like I keep telling myself there are many people like me but it still makes me feel so guilty it’s unbearable

[Being_a_good_Indian]

It's common to feel bad about masturbating, although there's no reason for it. Many people worry about masturbating because there are a lot of myths out there that masturbation is dirty, dangerous, or something to be embarrassed about doing. But the truth is, masturbation is a safe and healthy sexual activity. Masturbating is the gift that keeps on giving, whether you’re single or married, 25 or 55. While every woman may not be servicing herself (yet), there's no denying the physical and mental upsides of masturbation, whether you do it once a day, month, year, or even once a decade. In my opinion it's high if you masturbate 3-5 times a week.

[Being_a_good_Indian]

*day

[Asker]

Yes I know what worried me more was my porn consuming I felt like a different person

[Asker]

my brain completely shut down when I watched porn I didn’t understand what I was doing tbh I was like a child that didn’t understand what was actually going on

[Being_a_good_Indian]

Yup. In my opinion imagination is always better than porn but it's individual choice and preferences. Sometimes our hormones drive us crazy. Is it fine nowadays or still you face any issues?

[Asker]

it’s actually very hard for me to resist the urge to watch porn since i’m single and don’t like hookups I’m thinking about talking to a doctor because my hormones drive me crazy every single day

[Being_a_good_Indian]

Porn may temporarily ease the struggle of being single, but it can create serious problems in the long run. The reality is, your chances of finding a relationship and falling in love for real are lowered significantly when porn is a constant habit, because porn can add to already existing feelings of loneliness and anxiety. It’s not worth it. porn can’t substitute human connection, romantic or otherwise. Compare watching someone’s Snapchat story or commenting on their Instagram post to actually sitting across a table enjoying some In-N-Out Burger together. If you are suffering from anxiety or depression due to it then definitely you should consult doctor.

[AustinMan]

Be gentle with yourself. We all have those things. So you're a sexy lady that loves it. Try to focus some of that energy into work and into finding a good relationship with a guy with a huge sex drive as well. We're out there, trust me.

[Shivvy123]

You're being way to hard on yourself! The main thing is you don't watch it anymore, so I wouldn't go as far as saying you've an addiction to porn. And the fact you can get turned on really easily is a good thing! It means you don't need to watch that stuff ever again to get off. Absolutely nothing wrong with that at all. So what if you randomly get turned on? It's not hurting anyone is it?

There's nothing wrong with you!

[Lost_Spark]

I can relate to this, I too went through a similar situation.

[chriscdi]

this isn't even that bad, there's shit way worse on the internet, its just a kink you have, no need to feel guilty about it, you are vibin

[Asker]

I’m pretty sure I watched some messed up stuff I don’t understand how all that was even on the internet

[chriscdi]

well its on the internet for a reason which means you are not alone 😂👌

[Asker]

But isn’t that crazy like wtf are people watching

[chriscdi]

fetish and shit become more normal the longer we live lol

[honeymonster000]

We all have weird sexual fantasies and as long as its legal and not hurting anyone it's fine

[swettannie]

that kind of things happend a lot, don't blame yourself. being turned on can change us so easely

[Asker]

it’s like i‘m a different person like an animal when i’m actually shy and scared of everything

[swettannie]

it's ok, you're not the only one like that

[Asker]

Thank you!!

[swettannie]

don't hesitate if you need to talk about it

[CubaPirate]

Don't be too harsh on yourself you were young naive and inquisitive

[Asker]

I know but I was an adult at that age tho :(

[JohnO45]

What crazy shit were you watching?

[Anonymous]

Lmao ya sure.