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Im 21 years old and I come from a family of 5. Older brother. Older sister. Me. Younger brother and younger sister. We were raised by a single mother. Growing up i was fine up until the age of 5. When my brother 5years older than me first molested me. I won't go into details. I remember it was when we were playing hide and seek and he caught me hiding behind the garage sofa. I felt like vomiting afterwards and everytime hed look at me. He would like his lips (he used his hands on me). I remember feeling ashamed and gross. After that i became hypersexual. I started getting horny young. Had many other occasions like that with my older brother. I stared to belive that i wanted it. My older sister made me eat her out when i was quite young as well on afew occasions. My cousin and older brother made me do things to them to get toys. I was a child and they were too. I still feel guilty about it. I had sexual encounters with my family friend (2 years younger than me). Once or twice. And i thought this was all normal. It went on with my brother till he was about 15 and he brought it up when he was 17 but i ignored it. I grew up in a tough home. My sister bullied me and hit mw for no reason she's 4 years older than me. We were quite poor and growing up in a 3rd world country didn't help. I had to live without my mom for years. She was quite narcissistic. But she did everything for us. I didn't get to go to school after 13th grade due to money. Fast forward to know.
I've had multiple reckless sexual relationships.
I get pleasure from hurting others (taking someones man)
I have bad trust issues
I'm a walk over.
I'm a sex worker (sugar baby and stripper)
But. I somehow managed to get myself into business school in a first world country. I'm doing sex work to support myself.
Now here's the thing. Now that we're older. We're like one big happy family. I disowned my older sister. Due to her toxicity and jealousy towards me.
I was molested by my brother for years. Advice?
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My brother lives in the same country as me and he pretends like nothing ever happened. I've lent him over 2000dollars this month alone. he's also successful in his field. I know bringing this up will ruin manh lives
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But its not getting easier as i get older. I've come to grips with everything that happened and how i was used. How it has psychologically damaged me for all these years and I'm paying for it now. I'm extremely depressed. Im quite attractive and always smiling so people think my life is perfect. But I am breaking. I need advice. I have a boyfriend who is trying to get me to tell him who abused me but im so afraid. I dont know what to do. Forgive the messiness of this. But im emotional right noe
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