Has someone been through a similar situation? Am I a slut?

[HeavenStealer]

I feel incredibly guilty. I'm a 17 year old girl. Me and boyfriend were in a relationship for 8 months. Last month we started fighting a whole lot and I thought he doesn't want me or something I don't know. I had thoughts about him doing other people, people I am insecure about, in turn I had 2 thoughts about 3 faceless guys doing me and one with a person, now these people weren't people i knew, or people who exist. These thoughts were 2-3 mins and just felt terrible afterwards. Due to covid i had started masturbating a lot and uptill last year i wouldn't do it as much. I couldn't tell him, but knowing me he figured out but didn't tell me he knew and we broke up, promising to work on themselves. He has been through a lot in life, he sounded insecure and I thought I ruined his life. I didn't like these thoughts, so I decided to work on them, they were like unwanted inhibitions, I talked to a stranger on the internet, who told me it's in my nature to be a slut, he was kind, but he told me to tell my boyfriend since he figured he already knew. I talked to my boyfriend and he said he knows, but had lost all faith in me and asked me to not lie to me again. I told him all of what I had thought, and it just broke him and ofc he couldn't believe me, wondering why it is him who has to suffer this way, and why i couldn't have been normal. He thought that maybe I would do these things in real life. He decided to forgive me but I feel really ashamed of myself and pathetic. We're still on with the other thing, he still couldn't handle me crying, and went out of his way to be kind to me, and I don't know I have promised change but I want to disappear to have put him through this. I won't lie to him again, and I will change. Has someone been through something similar?

[btbc92]

Being a slut has to do with having sex with multiple people who your not married to. What your dealing with is demonic and you need to rebuke it. You have stuff happening your life that is not good and toxic andbghat is why your doing this even more. I can only hope that you are not sexually active outside of marriage as well, but you're going through stuff that you should not even be having in your life. If you're already feeling this way towards your boyfriend because you feel ashamed, all the more reason why you should be repenting of those things. Because he is human, he's not the one you should be asking for forgiveness even though yeah he deserves to know. It's Jesus is the one that you need to be seeking forgiveness. You're going through things again that is hard for you to do, because there is a lot of things that you still have to learn. But at the end of the day, you are going into a new stage into your life where you all are young woman, and you have to understand where your morals and standards lay at. But you have thoughts there are indeed whorish in nature, but you do NOT have to accept it. Remove it from your presence. And don't do it again. That's it. And you leave it there and you don't bring it back up again.

[Mikelaughs]

You are a human being, and have natural feelings of arousal and desire.
Many times, we cannot control what we like or desire, even if those desires are deemed as " wrong " by people who judge ( even though they have no right)
This is a complicated situation, with many details to sort out!
We should talk about it somewhere else where others can't see.
Hmu

[slatyb]

Drop the guilt. And drop “slut” from your vocabulary. What utter bullshit. Your duty is only to be honest with your partners and to avoid unwanted pregnancy and spreading STDs. Your fantasies are your own. Whatever works for you is fine.

[Thatsamazing]

This is dumb.

[Wise4myage]

I see, so having fantasies over three faceless guys you don't even know makes you a slut? I think not.

[gandolph3]

No you are not a slut

[Anonymous]

What goes on inside your mind is your business, its absolutely nothing to do with anyone else and you do whatever the hell you want in there.

You haven't done anything wrong at all and have nothing to feel bad about.

[Anonymous]

Everyone has impure thoughts once in awhile but you didn’t act on them so you’re fine