I want to confess anonymously that I might be sick in the head. Why do I get turned on by interracial porn if I am racist?
I get pissed off sometimes because I am reminded of what happened. I now find myself doing sick things in private. I go to pornhub and type in "Asian" and it is white male and Asian female galore with lots of videos and millions of views. I am turned on by that. I have no idea why. The first time I saw a video like this was by accident. It feels like I'm on a roller coaster of emotions. I feel sad, mad and turned on all at once. I see white males as a Disney prince because I grew up watching that. I made it into my mind that white female and white male was only normal. I have orgasmic sensations watching this type of porn. I grew up watching these movies of Disney prince and just seeing another girl from another race handle a white guy like that makes me feel a certain guilty pleasure... I am disgusted with myself afterwards and I delete my history right away after seeing videos.
So what is wrong with me?
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