Is it bad I wouldn’t Care if I was rape?

[Anonymous]

Ever since I remember I’ve always felt emotionally flat,
let me jus say that I’m 100 percent straight male into ladies only, but if for whatever reason... my dad put my up for sale to some man to rape me, and the rape was not including violence but jus sexual rape, I wouldn’t really bothered if I was rape by a man when I was young, as far fetched and shocking and hard to believe as that might sound, it really wouldn’t bother me,
i never understood what is bad about being raped... it’s jus a unwanted fallic object shoved up your rectum?
so what? Apart from the little pain you might experience, what else is bad about it?
the fact someone violated you and took your rights without your permission n did it anyway?
i never really had any self respect n never cared about myself or my body, I also have zero self esteem... so if someone stole my virginity, so what? It doesn’t matter, and neither do I matter, why is it a problem if someone raped me?

a lot of other people seem to get mentally traumatised or sad after being raped... but me personally I wouldn’t care, it’s jus a little pain n then bam it’s over with, I’d jus continue my life as if nothing happened

[Anonymous]

This is sick, almost seems to be a made up story. Like you say you straight and no matter how old you were you could not have licked it, a normal person would be disgusted and it would hurt pretty bad up the ass. Rape is not just putting something inside you its overpowering, forcing, hitting and finally making you surrender powerlessly.
So either you had a really big asshole or guys who did you was really small. By the way your dad is a sick bastard and that is the worst thing a parent can do.
Also get some self respect and self worth. See someone.

[Asker]

I didn’t enjoy it since I like girls only, but it didn’t disgust me either, I’m a realistic rational person, it is what it is... I jus don’t care about it since it’s in the past and the past doesn’t matter, I only care about the present moments and the future

[Asker]

Also it did hurt abit but it’s no worse than taking a large shit in the toilet, I’m pretty good with dealing with pain and slammed my head into hard concrete before by accident, so that made my pain tolerance go up so it didn’t hurt too bad

[Asker]

Also the overpower forcing thing didn’t really happen since I didn’t know about homophobia and feeling gay back then, I feel like a faggot now... but back then I jus let it happen cos I didn’t know what was going on

[winterfox10]

It's not bad, it just demonstrates that you have no clue what rape is actually about, nor about the real traumas it creates. As someone who was raped; it can you that the damaging experience wasn't so much the rape itself, it was the complete indifference of the world around me and then this weir insistence that I must be making things up... like why the fuck would I make something like that up?

[Asker]

hmm, I guess I’d have to be raped myself to see what it feels like lol

[winterfox10]

It is certainly a unique experience lol

[sensible27]

Interesting. Rational prespective. Maybe it's about what r*** means instead of what has physically happened. You could fall down and hurt yourself but if someone else hits you it means something different.

[Asker]

hmm, I never saw rape as an abusive thing like someone beating you or hitting you, even tho it’s not consensual I feel it’s neither an agreement or a disagreement But I guess I can begin to understand why it’s so bad for other people if they see it in an abusive way bullying kind of way, thanks for enlightening me