I’m torn between giving my best guy friend a blow job vs waiting for a future boyfriend. I’ve never had sexual relations with anyone before?
My friend and I have always had a flirtatious history and we’re both single. I am in love with him, but not in a serious way. I eventually want to meet a new guy to marry.
About the idea of waiting for future boyfriend:
A part of me wants to have my first sexual experience with someone I’m in a serious relationship with who I’m deeply in love with. I want his penis be the 1st one I experience. I think that would be really romantic.
Also, I’m afraid I might find it psychologically disturbing to have memories of being sexual with someone else other than him.
About the idea giving friend a blowjob:
But on the other hand, for so long I’ve had an intense desire to be sexual with my best guy friend. I do badly want to see his penis, and I so badly want to touch his penis and see how he personally responds to different ways of touching him. Almost all the time I have intense sexual thoughts of him.
Final Thoughts:
Even though a part of me thinks I should wait for a future boyfriend, I have so desperately for so long wanted to give him a blowjob, I’m wondering if this waiting for a future boyfriend thing is really worth it. I thought maybe I should let myself have some fun because I so badly want to do this.
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