I masturbated to my aunt and I feel bad. What should I do?

[Anonymous]

(I know this is long, but please read it)
I'm really close with my aunt. We always talked about stuff that I never talked with someone else. We always played games, and overall had a lot of fun. I love my aunt, but I think I regret this. So, I used to spend my summers on my family's houses, whether it would be my grandpa's, grandma's, or my aunt's. Anyways, I was 15, I used to spend most of the time on her house, as I I had the most fun there, but one night, I messed up. I woke up at 4am to drink some water and to pee. I went to check my aunt and she was only wearing a bra and panties.(she is pretty thick, with big boobs, so I just straight thought of that) I think I had a boner as well but I can't remember. So anyways, unfortunately, I couldn't resist but to jerk off. After I came, I slept with her, hugging her. This is pretty messed up, and I regret this, but we've talked about masturbation and basically anything that has to do with sex. She has caught me masturbating plenty of times, but I don't mind, as we're pretty close. She has even complemented me. I haven't told her, and I don't think she knows. This happened 3 years ago. Should I tell her? Is it to late now? I regret what I did, and I hate my self for doing it, but I always had this in my mind and I had to get it out my chest.

[josephinelcajon]

I grew up nudist and mom was very open about sex. She had seen me masturbate from birth. I remember showing her my first pubic hair and at 11 I ran to her room flopped down beside her and said "watch this" I was masturbating to show her I could ejaculate. I cumed so hard and was so proud. I remember asking her to watch as I orgasmed and "did you see that!" She made me so happy with her excitement followed by me asking a million question like how often is that a lot how far etc. I would tell her you sond very close to her and open to talk about sex.

[Asker]

Yeah. I feel the most comfortable with my aunt. I'm really close and she's the one who teached me about sex, protection, masturbation act. I kinda felt awkward hearing those stuff from my mum, since I would see her everyday, but not with my aunt.

[josephinelcajon]

I could show or ask my mom anything! She even showed me her vagina and how she masturbates. Dad was no where to be found.

[Asker]

If I start a family, that's exactly how I want it to be. So they aren't ashamed with their bodies. My aunt didn't show me her vagina, but the way she told me was basically the same lol

[josephinelcajon]

Sense we were nudist it was no big deal. I followed you so you can pm me if you want

[Asker]

Alright

[chihuahua011]

If you will be at peace with that then you can tell her. If y'all talk about sexuality and stuff then this isn't far off since you said you regret it and wouldn't do it again and it seems you nurtured this regret for years now. Tell her and accept whatever reaction you get.

[Asker]

Ok, but how should I tell her? In a conversation, or straight up tell her? And should I was till summer to tell her in person or over the phone?

[chihuahua011]

I wouldn't think this is something to casually tell her over the phone. More likely when you two talk about similar stuff again.

[Asker]

Ok. I'll make sure it's the right time to tell her. Thanks!

[ChrisMaster69]

Forget about it and move on

[Asker]

Can't really forget about it cause it's been on my mind since I realized it was wrong. I've held it in my chest so long, that I think it's better if I would tell her, although I don't know if it's the right thing to do. I feel like if I tell her, she's going to laugh and make some kind of joke, cause she's a joker. Don't know how I would feel about that...

[ChrisMaster69]

I’ve cracked one off about loads people, does not change how I react and get along with them. There is fantasy and reality and a fucking big wall between them.

[Asker]

True, I get that. I've jerked off to girls that I talk and that hasn't changed anything. But I think there's a difference with a girl that you can have sex with, and a girl that's literally my mom's sister...

[Serelita]

Tell her, it's not too late

[Asker]

You think so? How do you think she's going to react?

[Makeushiver]

It's something you can simply let go

[Asker]

But don't you think it would be better if she knew?

[prosmind]

Just fantasise.

[justaguy173]

So did you cum on her or something? I'd have moved her panties to the side and finished there. If she compliments your cock, she wants it. Fill her up!

[Asker]

NO! I wouldn't do that! She wasn't awake, she was sleeping and she's my aunt at the end of the day. If you go to the comments, you'll see I've explained it a bit better. She never looked at me in a sexual way, I believe. We just talk a lot about stuff, inappropriate and appropriate. You can say I saw her as a "teacher", kinda.

[Anonymous]

y'all had sex?

[Opinion Owner]

I am just asking because i am confused and you said y'all slept together and some shit.

[Asker]

No, she was sleeping with her bra and panties only and I just jerked off to her. I wouldn't do that with my aunt.

[Asker]

I was 15 at the time, and after I came, I wanted to sleep, so I slept with her. Nothing else.

[Opinion Owner]

Bruh, I am traumatized over here and this really ain't none of my business but if she caught you masturbating many times and even compliment you... 😐 I am just lost for words like no offense but that is creepy seems like your aunt look at you in a sexual way as well and since she already caught you jerking off you miles will go ahead and admit to her about you jagging off to her 🤦🏼‍♀️.

[Asker]

No, I don't think she looked at me in a sexual way. I used to talk with her a lot, and one day we started talking about masturbation. She asked me "so, you masturbate?" Yeah I was shocked, but it's not like she wanted to have sex with me. We've been talking for 6+ years, and the "sexual" talking came after 2,5 years. When I said, "I love her" I didn't mean in a sexual way. And I only did it once. Like I said, I regret this, and I wouldn't have done this again.

[Opinion Owner]

Oh, will in that case since you are a adult now i think you should tell her so you can get it off your chest.

[Asker]

I thought of her as a "teacher", kinda. Can't really explain how things were, but it weren't in a sexual way. Now as far as me getting caught, she had a guest room that I would stay there, but since it had a slide door, it made lots of noice so we wouldn't close it. The bed was in a place that you had to get in the room to see it. And I believe she caught me about 6-7 times? Around that, but I remember she told me "nice one" one time.