Lusting for my best friend?

[Riesa]

So, she's basically someone I've been friends with for almost 5 years now. We are really close but we kind of broke off for a while cause of an issue, but we both decided it was childish and became friends again. I'm not sure that she likes girls she considers herself straight but she's kissed a girl before and we've also kissed but it's those friend types of kisses were it's just a smooch. For the past year since 2020 I've imagine what having sex with her is like and I can't stop. My cheeks flush, my breath hitches and my mind races. I compare myself and always wonder if she likes me in that way. She did say I had nice tits and I always dwell on the small thing she says about me. I know she wouldn't want to be in a relationship and I don't mind it. I don't know what to do.. Should I tell her about it? I'm really desperate 😭

[Kayleighjo32]

As someone who is also in love with their best friend (only difference is he's a man) I have to tell you, those thoughts dont go away. You think about it more and more, you analyze their behaviour to try and see if there is any hint of anything there- you are literally driving yourself crazy. You need to tell her. I know the heart pounding in chest and anxiety ridden fear of rejection feelings well. But at the end of the day this person is your friend and they are hardly going to laugh at you for telling them how you feel are they? i told my friend- it was terrifying for the very reasons you are scared. but im glad its out in the open now. Good luck

[Riesa]

Wow damn thank you so much. I didn't know someone could relate. You described it all very well for me. I'm going to tell her then

[Kayleighjo32]

Go for it!! I messaged my friend because I chickened out of telling him to his face.

[Riesa]

What did he say?

[Kayleighjo32]

so for context we live together.. he messaged me back and said you're my friend, i can't do anything to lose that and then he text me back 10 mins later saying i dont know why i said that. come jump into my bed. lol. I only told him the other day and now he's gone to visit family for the holidays so were working out what we are to each other, like i say we live together too so its super complicated.

[RebeccaBI2000]

Tell her how you feel, because you will always wonder

[Riesa]

I'm nervous about that... My heart is literally thumping out of my chest. What if she rejects me?

[RebeccaBI2000]

Better to try for love, then not try at all. You also need to ask yourself is the risk worth the possibility of ending your friendship

[bean2k21]

I don't see the harm in telling her
But if she's straight, she's straight

[Riesa]

In person? Or by messaging 😣

[bean2k21]

If you do it in person then you might get lucky lol

[Wise4myage]

You should make a move on her, but realize it could affect your friendship.

[jasco]

just ask her out

[maythatis]

ok i now get it

[Riesa]

What should I do? Should I tell about it I don't know ughh