I have been forced to perform oral. I have had guys make threats about what they want to do to me. I've had guys only look at me one way. All of this has completely turned me off when looking for the right guy. I'm almost 18, so I know I'm still young. I've heard the saying, "but there's many years ahead of you", but it doesn't change the fact that I have been stuffed over. It wasn't too long ago where I wanted to "wait" for the special one, and keep that intimacy with that one person. But now all I want to do is lose my virginity to a random. But not stop at that, but keep on persuing it with different men. I struggle in relationships and desire just to go out and sleep with as many people as I can. What should I do? Advice please?