I feel extremely insecure about my boyfriend and his stepsister's relationship. How do I deal with this?
I feel extremely uncomfortable around them because of the way they've interacted in the past. One time about a year ago we were celebrating her and her dads birthday (my bfs stepfather) and his posture was fixated on her all night (sitting facing her, barely talking with me). Then they got kind of drunk and as we all were going upstairs to go to bed she was going to shower. They were joking about something and my boyfriend said "if you don't stop I'll go in with you"
Suffice to say I couldn't help feeling disgusted by the comment. Feeling a bit drunk myself I confronted him asking if he was into her. He seemed shocked and weired out saying "she is my sister" but I felt sick to my stomach the entire time and I wouldn't ever make a comment about that to someone I considered family.
The worst part is that she is totally his type. He likes blondes (he follows a million blonde models on insta) and she has a good body because she is a swimmer. Im definitely not ugly, I have a good body even though I don't work out but I would consider myself brainy compared to her. She is definitely hotter than me.
Anyways, my boyfriends mother is having a 50th birthday this summer and she is attending of course. I'm considering not going because I feel traumatized by my boyfriend's comments and interactions with her that I would just rather not want to witness it. He is totally free to go but my insecurity is keeping me from wanting to join.
Despite bringing this rather embarrassing topic up with him, I don't feel any reassurance at all.
Yes, I watch porn. Maybe too much. My boyfriend is good to me and we have a good relationship. This is the only thing that stops me enjoying my relationship with him fully.
Any advice would be great.
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