Hello. I am basically still with my ex boyfriend. But he said he "needs time" before we can get back together. Well last night I was at a bar. VERY drunk. And danced with this guy made out with him... Then he ended up going home with me and my room mate and her guy. And me and him ended up messing around. Not actual sex, but basically everything else.. I feel DISGUSTED with myself. I feel sad, mad, slutty.. etc. The next morning was awkward Because I avoided him for the most part, and he has been trying to text me all day but I want absolutely nothing to do with him... So I am kinda just ignoring it. I love my ex and I honestly don't know what I was thinking. And when I was hanging out with him today he kept touching me and trying to pursue sex (my ex) and normally I am all over that! But today, I felt guilty and nasty. Am I a complete terrible person? Will I go back to normal with my ex and not feel gross when we go to have sex?