Can somebody help me please?

I feel like I deserve to get treated like s**t for all the things I did to my mother.
We would argue almost every single day, and this started several years ago. Now we still argue, but not as much.
It would go from a calm argument, to a shouting match. This would result in her slamming the bedroom door shut, and us not talking for hours, until one of us breaks the silence.

She's my mother, so she has the right to slap me. I feel like I need it, since I've been being an a**.

Who agrees with me?
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