I thought a month ago that I was falling for her but I dismissed it as let me tell me you I am completely straight. I do want to kiss her and stuff in real life but like as an experiment. I don't get turned on by girls. I was already so confused at times and today I had a dream that she and I were being ragged/given dare and people were filming it and she told we had to kiss. It was good. I have kissed boys and I hated it, so gross. But rest I enjoy immensely. What the heck does all of it mean?