I really am completely alone in this pitiful excuse for a world. My own father, even he doesn't pretend to care anymore, he doesn't even feign interest in the things I care about and even things I do, he outright declares his lack of interest. My mother is much of the same, except she at least doesn't tell me how disinterested she is. My "best friend" favors video games over me, and my other friends don't call or text me. I suck with girls badly as well and always get rejected. The only silver lining in all this is that this one girl really does seem to care about me, the only person that does too. My cousins don't care, my friends don't care, HAHA, *I* don't care! I pretend to be happy and positive like some fucking idealistic hack, but everything is fucking awful, I'm always miserable and want to die half the time. I even want to hurt myself today, on Christmas. WHY CAN'T THIS ALL JUST FUCKING END?