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Sometimes I wonder - if I spent as much time as I do jerking off on any of the things I care about (sports, art, music, hobbies, fitness, whatever) would I be a professional at those things... maybe, maybe not but I definitely would be significantly better.
When it comes to porn & masturbation, I'm not for or against it - also that would make me an absolute hypocrite for how often I engage in the act - but I'm definitely aware of the damage and issues that can come along with it, which in my eyes has become a unspoken epidemic that people try to casual ignore.
I like many others am a porn addict.
I started to realize this years ago when it 1st started to become a problem, there are many factors that contributed to this but the biggest one is - escapism.
Masturbation/porn is one of many ways that I try to release stress and escape reality, it's a combination of a lack of satisfaction, loneliness, unmet desire, stress release and a force of habit all combined.
I've injured myself through over-masturbating/porn both mentally & physically (I don't feel like getting too deep into it at the moment but I've legit injured my genitalia in the past to point of needing to see a specialist), I feel desensitized, I have a hard time getting aroused, I crave unrealistic fantasy, I have unrealistic body expectations (both for myself and whoever I'm sleeping with) I have an increase desire in fetishes I once would have found disgusting when I was much younger, etc... I could go on for a long time but I think I've made my point.
I've also watched it dictate certain choices & decisions that I find absurd and idiotic, for example - I've stayed up too late in the past and missed work because I got carried away with tab after tab of different sites in the middle of the night (12 to 3am), I've even been late for work in the morning because I decided to try to do a "speed run" because I was over whelmed with the impulse to do so aka morning wood and loneliness & morning porngraphic thoughts.
I feel like I'm spamming different YouTube videos and Tedtalks but they can describe and explain facts and figures better than I can, to further illustrate a point.
It's weird to acknowledge this, but I feel like this can be as destructive as a habit as alcoholism but it's hard to compare but in its own way, to me - it is.
I'd like to quit but I don't know how...
So that brings me to the other half of this - Escapism
Escapism to me is blowing off responsibility and personal obligations by distracting myself with my own internal dialogue, my daydreams, or electronic devices (phone & computer) or what other things that slows down or eliminates productivity & personal pursuits.
Escapism for me is the manifestation of creativity gone rapid and/or trying to sedate an overactive mind with an influx of information and sensory overload with different bits of audio, photos and videos.
Escapism from my perspective, is a lot of things...
On one end it helps fuel and spark ideas for creativity by letting my mind wander in unfamiliar and familiar terrains.
But on the other end it's my ultimate distraction and my main contributor to not accomplishing anything.
I don't know what my conclusion for this rambling mess of a mytake is - maybe to whoever reads this they can fill that part in - but I felt this was necessary.
They say "knowing the problem is half the battle" but to me it's just the 1st step of a massive staircase.
I have good idea for what I need to do but following through and staying committed is a completely different task because it is the task.
We all struggle with something, either constantly or marginally and whether or not we can overcome will determine how far up will get on the staircase... and you'll never know unless you do more than the 1st step.
Thanks for reading
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