I'm pushing everyone away for stupid reasons. please help

For what reasons do you desire to lose weight? Good ones? Bad ones? Constructive or shallow? How much do you really value your friendships? You seem to value them less than you do these other motivating factors, as that value is taking precedence here.

If you don't like being the sort of person with such values then stop.

Alright, first things first.
1. from a health point of view, this as you know is NEVER a good idea. starving yourself will slow your metabolism way down to the point where you have no energy and when you do eat a little, your body tries to hold onto it as long as possible because it is trying to sustain life. so when you do decide that you are presentable, you'll gain weight much faster than a normal person. if you want to loose body fat, I suggest a diet that will fit your day to day schedule, there are multiple diets online for that.

2. Your mentalilty sounds to me like this.(I don't like the way I am, so why should anyone else.If I don't even respect the person I am, how can I expect others to accept and respect me?) The only way out of this mentality is to realize that there are people around you who love you. It's found that babies who are provided with food, water, and shelter, eventually have psychological problems because they were never introduced to love. A biological response to a baby crying is for you to pick it up and hold it. This is part of our base instincts as a species, to provide love and attention to the things that we want to preserve. If you can't see any way for you to bring yourself to accept yourself, than you need to look at the people around you, especially the people that you don't want to tell that you're starving yourself. the reason that you don't feel like talking to certain people about this particular action and stage in your life is because you're afraid that they already love, respect, and accept you for who you are.

It's the things that we never want to hear, that are the things that need to be heard.

Don't feel like you are starting some drama just because you are bringing attention of this issue with your friends and your loved ones, just know that they are always waiting for an opportunity to help you with whatever you need. That is why they are friends and family.

The more I read on about this, the more afraid I am for you, get some help a professional will take you seriously, I think that there are some underlying issues you need to deal with, don't take this the wrong way, but you don't sound mentally stable, and I fear the more you go around talking about an issue that only exists in your head, people are going to start to think you have something wrong going on upstairs! Good luck sweetheart, and talk to someone!

You need to get some professional help, what your saying is not normal, you should love yourself it should not matter what people think about you. Now your afraid of going outside? Ok you need to tell someone your issues and get yourself some help, get into group therapy, talk to a friend do something besides starving yourself and sitting inside, I think there is a bigger issue going on inside your head and you need to get it fixed before you develop anymore mental issues!

I know how you feel because I have been there and as much as I am going to say "DON'T FUCKIN' STARVE YOURSELF" how much of that is actually going to be taken into consideration? The point here is that no one else can MAKE you stop thinking about it only YOU can actually talk yourself throught this. I can, however, try my best to give you my logic. There is nothing wrong with losing weight but you have to do it right. I am going to tell you this right now -- Sure, you can starve yourself and lose weight. that weight will come back no matter what and I can guarantee you that fact. You have already noticed the downfall of this depressed behaviour -- you are losing your friends. To fix this you need to get yourself on right terms and make yourself understand that you are over analyzing yourself.
I read some of your replies to the answers below. You said you are 5'1 and we know you weigh 126 pounds. If you calculated your BMI (Body Mass Index) you are in an average range. Which is a GOOD thing! It means you are not obese or underweight. Its a perfect weight for your body type and your height. Your BMI therefore is 23.8 (average BMI is between 18.4 - 24.9). You are in this range and you shouldn't have to worry about being "fat". You need to at least force yourself (if not on agreement) to one day, step out of the house and hang out with ONE of your friends. One that you trust the most! Talk to her/him about this and tell them how you feel. Friends can help you with this as much as anybody - good friends will try to get you out of the house, give you good honest comments and make you have fun! But, like I said before, as much as I can sit here and type out my "wisdom" . you might not even give a f*** to it or let it sink in to you. There is nothing wrong with keeping yourself healthy. Go for a run, a walk, put on your ipod and give yourself a nice body stretch for 10-15 mins. Change your diet. Instead of feeding yourself NOTHING because you don't wanna gain "fat" . feed yourself fruit, water, milk, veges. Trust me. they are healthy and won't make you fat instead they will keep you full and feeling good. Make a workout plan. Make a commitment to JUST keeping yourself healthy. Once you start doing that, you'll lose weight without knowing it and you'll be able to maintain it easier. Think about it, if you starve yourself for a month, your school will be affected, you will get sick and in all just feel crappy. Why not make mini-healthy choices instead of BIG-BAD choices? I know it seems hard to lose weight and to be honest its about mind over matter. Its not hard until you make it hard. Instead of going for a BIG MAC go for a homemade healthy sandwich. Its really that easy. Just be patient and determined. Go have fun with friends . Don't feel discourged by people calling you "d chubby one". my grandma says that to me all the time and trust me. I'm not chubby. You can't let little things get you down. If this doesn't help, plz get a councler.
Goodluck.

There is some irony here. Usually when people starve themselves, it's a control thing. If someone has financial issues or are under a lot of stress that's out of their control and the only thing that can be controlled is what goes in their mouths. I don't know if this is your case but you may want to look into it and see where this is coming from. If it is the case, then the ironic part is that while you're gaining control of what you eat, you're obsession with your weight is consuming and controlling you. 126 is not fat at all! Not even close! If you own a scale, throw it away! Get rid of it ASAP! This is not something that should be taken lightly, it's a serious issue that could be dangerous to your health if you continue this. If you're wanting to lose some weight, do it the right way. Starving yourself won't do anything. It will slow your metabolism down and when you do eat, your body will turn it into fat because it's deprived of nutrients. Get a friend to go to the gym with you. It'll make you feel better physically and mentally. Don't concentrate on how many calories or how much fat you're burning either. GIve yourself a healthy goal. What I did when I wanted to lose weight was I bought a pair of jeans that I wanted to fit into. I worked out 3 times a week and ate healthy. I treated myself to fast food and soda one day on the weekends and before I knew it, the jeans I wanted to fit into became big on me. Talk to your friends about this issue. Maybe you're pushing them away because you're feeling depressed or are afraid of them telling you what you're going to hear on here. I'm sure you're not repulsive, you've got to build your self esteem back up and let your friends be there for you. Take baby steps outside of your comfort zone to help it expand. When you go out and see that people aren't repulsed by you, you'll feel better. Also you may want to seek counseling to help you get through this. Best of luck hun and I really hope that you feel better about yourself soon.

Unless you're like 4 feet tall, 126 pounds is not fat. If you can't get to a point where you can see that on your own, you might need some professional help. There's no shame in it. Lots of people need help at some point in their lives, and you shouldn't hesitate to get it for something that's effecting you so dramatically.