I was looking over some e-mails that my ex and I had written back and forth to each other within the few months prior to our break-up.I read the things that I wrote and was SO mad at myself. I kept telling him that I was unhappy and that things weren't going to work in the long run and that I wasn't sure if I loved him anymore and how I deserved more.really hateful things and things that through his responses were OBVIOUSLY very hurtful. I never really meant any of those things.I would say them because I wanted him to tell me that I was wrong and just really wanted him to prove his feelings for me by taking the next step in our relationship. I knew in my mind that I had to make it a better relationship and stop fighting with him over stupid crap before he could realistically marry me.but I felt like I WOULD stop fighting with him and feeling "not good enough" if he DID. So, it was a lose-lose situation. Since the break-up, I've begged him to come back (not working obviously) but he just keeps telling me that he loves me but we don't get along well enough. Then he says that I was never happy with him anyway because I never acted like it. He just says "If we are meant to be, we will be" So, I guess what I am wondering at this point.should I leave him alone and let him miss me, or do I need to prove my love to him since I made him feel like I didn't really want him. I know how unwanted I made him feel and I know I have to change my ways.but how do I get him back? And do you believe that *I* made him feel like I didn't really love him and he let go because of that?
OMG. I think a major reason why my ex and I split was cause I kept pressuring him to marry me. He wanted to marry me but knew it wasnt the right time cause we fought way too much. I fought with him because I wanted more. Hello! That doesn't work. Eventually, after 3 years, he broke up with me (2 weeks ago) saying he will always love me but doesn't see us as being anything more than friends cause of the fighting. I suggest you give him space now. I begged too. For a week and a half. Read an ebook. I'm willing to email it to you if you want. It will either get you your ex back or give you the tools to move on. I hope you get him back. I know how you feel. Guilty. And if your like me your dying inside for all the pain you caused him. :( Fix your emotions and let that shine through. Lemme know if you want the book. :)