Bottling everything up!

Well your on here... So maybe hearing peoples opinions on your problems will help you sort through them.

Talk to a therapist or family member. I've never really communicated my feelings with anyone before so I don't really know what it's like to dump your emotions on someone else.

You need to see a therapist or talk to a family member. Most people are not going to want to hear about your problems because they believe they have problems of their own. You'll also have a tough time making friends if you're just complaining about how miserable you are. My recommendation is to find a hobby to distract you from whatever your fretting about. I promise there are hundreds of millions if not billions of people in this world who are far worse off than you are. It's just a guy. There are more guys out there. If you're just going to say that there aren't, or none like "him" then you are just being melodramatic. I can't relate to being sad, however I know I definitely get angry. The way I deal with that is I go to the gym. I either take out my frustration on a punching bag or weights. You could take up knitting or yoga or start lifting weights. Just be healthy, enjoy life, you only get one.

i do the exact same thing.. it feels terrible and you feel so helpless.. I've figured out that breaking down and crying is actually a good thing, it helps you get it out. belive it or not your mom or dad would be a good choice if you feel you don't have anyone to turn to. I know you probably think they won't care, or they'll think less of you for it, but they wont. they'll listen and comfort you because as parents they love you.

I know you say you don't want to talk to other people, but maybe therapy could help a bit. I had a similar issue where I had a lot of baggage after a really bad breakup, to the point where it began affecting all my other relationships. It was difficult to get myself talking - especially to a stranger - but now I really don't regret it.