I currently am dating my boyfriend who we've been together for about a year and a couple of months. About a week after our "year anniversary" he broke up with me because we argued so much. Come to find out he hung out with a friend of mine while I was on a night trip with one of my friends, and he claimed to have liked her. The day I came back, I called him, and he told me "things aren't working out, I hung out with Lily last night and I realized what it's like to have fun and not to argue. " It broke my heart of course. About a couple days after he finds out she just doesn't like him like that, and even though I told both of them I respect whatever they both decide I won't hate either of them she was just interested in someone else. We got back together and we haven't been arguing at all, we have fun while being together, but I just have in the back of my mind he likes her still, and I'm just that rebound girl he ran to, whenever it's me him the girl he used to like and his best friend, it's like he may like her and I may not know it.
I just want to trust him, but it's like every time I do he gives me a reason not to.
Hun, trust is 100% or it's nothing. You can't trust someone 80%. Either you trust someone or you don't. And if you can't trust someone, then you don't have a healthy relationship, and you should just end it. No point being in a relationship where there isn't 100% trust.
I feel for you lovenorhate343. I strongly believe that the foundation of any strong & healthy relationship is trust and open honest communication. Sounds like you only have a part of that. Since you can't trust him 110%, I 'd say end it with him and tell him how you feel. I think in the long run you'll feel a lot better knowing you broke up with your boyfriend due to trust issues then feeling trapped in a relationship where you are secretly wondering and questioning his motives. Being in a relationship without trust is prison. Good luck.