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Talk to him about how you feel. Take him out (you pay too, by the way) to a quiet place (doesn't have to be expensive, just quiet with no TVs or a bar for distractions) and just tell him that since you split up, you have been having doubts about why you agreed to the split. Tell him that because of some of the things he has done and said lately, you were thinking he was also having doubts about the soundness of the decision to split up and that you wanted to know what his thoughts REALLY were regarding you. Hopefully, he will open up a little and most importantly, be honest with you and himself.
Now, about the "really good friends" part. Falling in love with a "friend" is completely natural. The deeper the friendship, the easier it is to fall in love. Think about it. The natural progression of the greatest love stories of all times was the same as falling in love with a friend or wanting to be "more than friends with benefits" as the kids call it today. Seriously, have you ever heard of a stranger walking up to another stranger and saying "I want to have sex with you, will you be my friend?". Of course not. It always starts out as 2 complete strangers becoming acquaintances or friends of friends, then gradually becoming "friends" (with or without "benefits"), then moving into the deeper true friendship or companionship (again, with or without "benefits"), then consideration of moving in together/marriage/cohabitation/etc. etc. happily ever after. The only difference between the greatest love stories of all times and today's relationships is the time factor between complete strangers and the happily ever after part. There is nothing wrong or silly about wanting to fall in love with your friend(s). Shoot, I hope that my friends (my really good friends) could say that they love me, if not for marriage or something, then with at least some type or "kind" of love. I am sure that a tear or two would be shed at my funeral by my friends. Why would they cry if they didn't love me at least a little bit? (Of course, there is that guy I still owe a bunch of money to, but that's for another post.) But seriously, I fell in love my best friend and I married her. The BEST decision I ever made in my life was to take the plunge and tell her how I really felt about her. I knew from the beginning of the relationship/friendship that she was not interested in dating me or anyone else in particular. I respected that and lived with it for well over a year. My feelings for her grew over that time. I saw what a wonderful Mother she was to her daughter, and what a great self-sufficient and independent woman she was in the way she ran her life. After the year & 1/2 of being just good friends, I had to tell her how I really felt and was rewarded with affection and love in return. She had decided that all men were not assholes and that I was a pretty good catch. Married me about a year later and then we "lived and loved happily ever after." Go for it.
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