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First of all, I want to affirm you as a wonderful person. There is nothing wrong with you, you just aren't enjoying something like other people do. This proves you are a unique individual who is precious and awesome. Sex is about self fulfillment, so you are not just having sex, when this is going on, or you would be finding a way to enjoy it no matter what. Instead you are acknowledging that you don't enjoy it, and seeking the reason behind that. I would like to encourage you to do two things. First, think about what is happening, when he is doing this. Is he investing in you emotionally, mentally and spiritually? If so, then this just isn't for you, right now. If not, you may be sensing that he is more interested in your body, than you. Since your body is temporary, and you are permanent, that is a spiritual distraction that makes it hard to enjoy the physical. Since no more than 20% of a healthy long-term relationship is physical, is he investing in the rest, or simply trying to get you to do what he wants you to. Is he using this as a bargaining chip, or a way to give you pleasure, so you can feel his love for you. He should be investing in you, intimately in other ways, before he turns to the sexual. You might like to work through the book "The Five Love Languages" and see what your languages are, and how they interact with his.
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