I might have an eating disorder...very confused help!

go see the councillor not because its necessairily a big problem but because its not a big thing to go see them. its useful and theyl help and its good to touch base with that resource.

Consult a doctor!
Eating disorders are not something you should take lightly and gladly you don't! You know something is wrong now you gotta take actions.
Simply put, push yourself to eat. It has not be that much at all, just eat a bit a lot of times. Like after waking up a bread, in school at ~10 an apple or something, at 12 some other small thing, at 14h your good meal xD etc... every two hours have something to eat, it doesn't need to be much, just something.

But I'd highly suggest consulting a doctor.

I think you are suffering from both.

The statement about breakdowns is very telling.

As I am a college student, I know I have had my fair share of bumps with girls I've engaged in varying types of relationships with, none of which have affected my studies, or my ability to make it through the day.

However, it's fair to say we are "wired" very differently if compared.

So, to say you feel emotions over a guy, or a bad test, is not all that big of a deal. It happens, it's part of growing, so that would be nothing to worry about.

What the word "breakdown" describes is the inability to attend class, or other scheduled events. It means you can't make it through your daily life because the pain of whatever occurred is so unbearable it's impossible to function.

Further, you are feeling jealous about your friends who are "smaller" than you. They apparently have smaller waist sizes and it bothers you, and you probably are linking their physical appearance, and what you perceive to be success with guys, as directly connected. Subconsciously you are thinking that in order to attain that success, you need to have their appearance.

Well here's the plain truth about college and relationships.

Relationships in college in today's culture climate, are about as superficial as high relationships, if not more.

I will say there are plenty of people in college who are legitimately pursuing worthwhile relationships.

But I'd say 93% of what I see here, and at other colleges I visit are doomed relationships. Most people don't take the time to learn about what they want in a relationship, or about the person they are dating in college. So what you have is two people dating one another, who may as well be strangers.

And between the genders, I see many students who are for some reason comparing real life people, with what they are seeing on television. Girls truly believe that guys in college, should have access to money, and boats, and a whole load of other material items so they can go have fun with their girls while the guy carts them around.
And college guys think that women should be treating them like God’s gift to the world, and if they don’t, they’ll sleep with their mothers.
The whole social scene in many colleges is so bankrupt of any substance, it defies definition.
And now, entering my fourth year, it seems to get worse by the month. Literally.
It’s to the point to where I’m about to start suggesting people not go to college and just get a job upon graduating high school, because I know I seriously disliked this behavior then, and I’d never suggest someone go through it for another four years after that.
Whatever guy issues you’re having are not worth starving yourself over. In fact, they probably are not even worth thinking about.
As far as your friends go, wait and see how their relationships are going in December.

definitely go to the doctor and have it checked out. I work out a lot and eat healthy most of the time. I drink lots of water. and have small meals throughout the day. you should definitely go find out your BMI and get a general check up with a doctor you trust.

My Mother had anorexia when she was in High School. She almost died. She was admitted to the hospital and they fed her through IV's to stay alive. She said the reason she stopped eating was because the girls said she was fat (she weighed 125 pounds and she was 5'4 at the time). Once they found out she had anorexia, they started to care.

Having said that, sometimes when we are so stressed out, we like to hear that someone cares. Believe me I can't go to a grocery store anymore without seeing some sickly thin person on the cover. Girls are under so much pressure to get or stay thin.

It sounds to me like you are trying to save money right now. It also sounds like you are under a lot of pressure to be thin. But if you had a disorder in my opinion, you wouldn't be asking these questions. When my Mother had it, she denied it. It took my Grandpa using a measuring tape to measure her body for a casket to bring her out of it.

One thing I've learned in life is that you have to look out for yourself. Live your life for you. Don't let the stress of everything eat at you like this. I find that the best way to make the stress go away is to exercise. Take care of yourself and do things for you. Rise above the pressure and then when you do things for you, the right guy will notice. You are a great person, I can tell. You will be fine. :)

if you're having concerns, then my advice would be to go and talk to someone about it. as someone who has battled with an eating disorder for many years I can tell you there's nothing worse and it just keeps escalating. go and talk to a professional and they will be able to shed some light on your concerns!