Touchy subject

What people do when they get depressed is in close themselves so that others do not come in. Thats the worst thing to do. If you want help your family is usually at least for me a place to go in trouble times. I know if I was in trouble my family would comfort me and help me out.
If you are religious and go to a church then ask the pastor for help on the matter or if he could help out somehow. I don't know how hard you've got it but I hope this helps.

Damn that sounds pretty bad, go to a mental hospital.

Honey, you just got to get out of your slump. Try doing more things with your children. Get out of the house, go to the park, get active with your kids. Excercise always helps. Let your children ride their bikes while you jog or rollerblade. Then when you do get home, the children are exhausted and you feel better about yourself getting a great excercise. I excercise twice a day to get myself out of the house. I will get wrapped up in watching LMN and then feel sorry for myself, because I myself was part of an abusive relationship. It didn't get as bad as yours did, but I had to rebuild my confidence somehow, and excercise did just that. Look online to see what is going on in the area around you. Get out of the house and do something. I promise you will feel better, and if you feel yourself going into a slump, take the kiddos out and go for a walk.