Any advice is helpful.

I know you got a lot on you hands, and it's a lot of pressure, but you have a lot of pressure because you sound like you have a lot of potential (like natural talent, just needs the right direction. And that'll come from your experiences and your decisions). And I know you said you're not good with orders but maybe you just haven't landed a job you feel works for you. It sounds like you could use a job where you know what's to be accomplished for the day in general, and you take care of a list of duties or something independently, instead of someone giving you orders. Some kind of job or a boss who likes to work like that, or works with you like that.

As for myself, between the ages of 18 to 23, I tried out about six different jobs. But I didn't do it all at once. I took it in steps to find out which ones I liked and disliked. And I found out that sometimes your boss just shows up to work miserable and there's not much you can do about it but focus on your job for the time being. And try to find a new job. But if I tried to take on all that I was tried to achieve and experience, all at once - there's no way I would of been able to handle it.

And with school, if worst comes to worst (crossing my fingers that it doesn't, lol, for ya) and you decide to go to a city college or a state college, you can still do your general study science classes or whatever is necessary there if you want to do something like be a Pediatrician. It's better than just accepting defeat and not trying - if the university can't find a way to get you in, or if you don't meet the credentials/whatever. And if you find out that being a Pediatrician isn't for you, then at least you have your foot in the door for school, and you have time to make a change. But your finding out what you like and dislike along the way. Due to what you experience.

One thing that I think might help is checking out the dates of when applications have to be submitted by, and what they're looking for when you want to submit one (of the school that you want to go to). And also whatever other kind of plans that seem like they're close yet you still have some time to prepare for them. Maybe some kind of time-line type perspective might help make things seem not so piled up. And hopefully give yourself some space or whatever in between. See if you can set you own deadlines and prove yourself that this is something you can handle. And it's just by working smarter, not harder. And when it seems like too much, you got to break it down and organize it to what works for you. Or what's going to benefit you in the long run.

My advice is this.You've already stated that you just quit your second job and you're not good with orders. I was the exact same way when I was your age and I was just about ready to give up on myself. But after I failed a couple of classes and missed out on A LOT of opportunities, I wised up tremendously! You should go to a community college first 2 years and Then leave your parents' house! You think that you want to get away from them, but living on your own is so much harder than than you think. Use that time at the junior college to build up your credentials and then it will be easier for you to receive scholarships to the university of your choices.

As for your future, take things one day at a time and don't try to figure things out all at once! Life has a way of destroying your blueprint. Its one thing to have goals and another to have them written out so that you're not guessing. Yes, your goals and dreams change sometime; however, without a plan, you'll be easily distracted.

Don't be afraid to ask for help and guidance, surround yourself by people are going to or are already in the place that you want to be! Mentors are an excellent thing to have in your life, someone that will tell you want you don't want to hear so that you can be successful.

You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you!

May God bless you in all your endeavors!