I give up on life I think it's my time to go..

How are you doing now? I hope you are ok. :)

Well I just read your question and it reminds me of myself when I was like 16 and 17.
you have to know something. You're not alone in this world that had problems in his life. Parents who don't care. Bullied. Losing close friends and family ;

And a lot of that happened with me before. But you know now I'm 19 and I don't hate my past and I don't regret all the bad things that happened with me before. Because today I'm very satisfied of who I am and I am what I am because of my ugly and hurtful past.
and like they say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger

So like sexwiseman said you gotta be thankful. Look at people in africa in iraq in the poor countries where there is no opportunities no hope for better future. Look at the ill people that are struggling for life when they have no chance for it.

Just thank God for everything good you have and open a new white page in your life.

That's the beauty of life that you always can start over again.

Hi.
As a former health care professional I've worked with a few people that have survived their own suicide attempts. Every person has had their own traumatic experience, or they just felt they were worthless.
Just to give you a quick background---I used to work in a medical surgical unit, and above that unit, there was a cancer and hospice floor.

When I met the suicide victims, I told them there were people in worst shape than they were. Of course they replied, 'oh please, my life is so miserable, nobody loves me, nobody needs me, I'm just taking up oxygen. ' and on and on on.

So I replied to them, 'well, still, there are people in a worst position than you. There are people that are struggling to live. There are people that are fighting to live, but unfortunately, because of an illness, most likely they won't make it. They are in a worst position than you, because no matter what they do, they will not win the game. '

I never heard back an argument from any of these suicidal victims! Never. I would encourage them to go to a cancer floor, or a pediatric floor with dying kids, and volunteer there. I was fortunate enough to see that 2 of these victims followed my advice, and they found a purpose in life.

I'm nobody to be here lecturing to you; you mention you're sitting at home doing nothing. There is so much happening in the world. You've got nothing to do? Volunteer somewhere. I don't know what area of the country you live in, but look for volunteer opportunities. Somebody out there needs you, but if you close the doors in your room,and you're not willing to come out and help, then how will they know you're out there?

Another thing----have you been paying for counseling sessions? If you have that type of money to afford those, get out of the usa. Go to a third world country; join a mission. Look how people outside the usa struggle to live on 1 dollar a day, and see how they fight. There is so much more than the usa has to offer.

As for me. I'm 33, sure, I have a job that pays my bills, but is it what I want to do the rest of my life? No. I'm yet to discover what is the true purpose of my life, but I'm out there engaging the world. And trust me, I came from a third world country where we were lucky to have a meal a day. So even though I don't know the purpose of my life, I'm glad now that my situation has improved, and I'm thankful for each day I get to live, and help others.
Best of luck!

I can relate a bit about being miserable in high school. Now I look back at my life then and I don't even identify with the boy I was then. My life is completely different now. I've worked through my issues (believe it or not, the world is not against you, things *will* get better). Now I have a great job, good friends and family relationships. Stay strong!

It does sound like you might be suffering from depression. Depression and suicidal feelings are treatable mental disorders. If counselors didn't help, maybe a qualified mental health professional could help ease your depression with a prescription medication. Pharmacology is an amazing science. Talk to a doctor and ask them to refer you to a psychiatrist. They can help you by prescribing a treatment plan and show you techniques to cope with your grief and work though these tough times.

Please reach out and ask those around you for help. A family doctor is also a good person to talk to.

Ok, I can't answer this any better than anyone else has, but I'll throw in a few things from my point of view. ((all the answer's you've gotten as of when I wrote this all have good information and help. ))

As with others, I know how you're feeling. I keep asking myself why all this stuff keeps happening to me. Why can I catch a break? I've been teased, lost friends, been betrayed, etc. But it doesn't really matter what I've been through. As quackpotty said, it doesn't matter what anyone else has been through or that others have it worse off. When you are in pain, no matter how much of it you have, it is the strongest and worst pain there is because you're experiencing it. The pain you experience is always going to hurt more than anyone else's pain.

You've asked a question and you want an answer. Well, like all answer's the only easy ones are the ones you already know. The thing is, if you can't find an answer to your question in what's here as I post this you have to keep looking. You've asked this question which says you want an answer. You want another solution. Use that to fuel you till you find the a solution, other than suicide, that will work for you. Keeping looking. Don't give up! Find other's who you trust for help.

I know you said you've lost contact with a lot of your friends. Do what you can to try and get in contact with some of them. Call their parents and see if you can get their current number or e-mail. Keep searching.

As for finding new friends look for other social groups. Churches, sports activities, dance class, karate class, swimming, anything. There are lots of groups that are free to join or cost little to join. Find online groups with forums you can post in, like this one, to give you a social outlet.

Also, don't rule out all your other relatives. If you aren't in the best place with your parents try uncles, aunts, cousins, grandparents, or whatever you have. Find a parent of a friend you trust and talk with that person.

I can tell you that no matter what you think if you were to commit suicide people would miss you. Not all people outwardly show how they feel when a person dies. For some people it takes time for it to sink in before they get emotional about it. But just because the person moves on doesn't mean the person isn't grieving.

Keeping hanging on to your hope, to your faith, to whatever you can.

To borrow from something I once read on an icon- "if you can't run, you walk. If you can't walk, you crawl. If you can't crawl, find someone to pick you up and carry you. "

There is always hope as long as you keep looking for it. The only time you ever truly lose is when you give up.

Okay, first off, stop all those thoughts and take a read. I hope this will help, as it's all true.

Bullies are a nightmare. I can agree with you on that. My only two friends (at separate times) in junior school eventually became my biggest bullies, amongst others. It's not fun. It's pointless telling anyone otherwise. It's also a pity that these people get their security from stealing it from others. Don't let them get to you. They do it to hurt you, and to take what's rightfully yours. Do you really want to give them the satisfaction? I hope you don't. Find a teacher or someone you trust to help you deal with these idiots.

I've dealt with depression since I was seven years old. I'm now twenty four, and I still have to deal with it regularly. Sometimes it makes me think that things in life can't get any worse, and then someone will say something stupid to me and I'll think that it just has. Don't listen to those things that people say.

Strangely enough, when I'm under it's spell, depression also stops me from seeing things for the way that they truly are. I focus on all the crappy things that are going on in my life, and ignore all the good. It is always there when I come out from under those clouds, but I was just blinded to its existence. The fact that you've written this question tells me that you haven't seen all these things. Just take a look. Think about all the great things that you have in your life. I will never tell you that you should look at all the others who 'have it worse' because when I'm feeling down, that is the absolute worst thing you can say. There are good things, I can tell you that.

The fact that you are alive is brilliant. Don't underestimate that. It's not worth it. Do you have any idea how valuable life is? Can you create it (sex not included), or give something life that has lost it? I'm fairly sure that your friends would rather that you live life to the full, as they did, than to give it up so easily. Do you want to get these friends royally pissed at you for suicide, or do you want them to have fun watching you have a life?

You first attempted at 14 too? Me, I tried slicing my wrists, but the knife I was hacking away at my wrists with was so 'blunt' I never even drew blood. Strangely enough, despite how desperate I was to cut into my wrists (i was really slashing violently), I cut myself fairly easily with the same knife on a finger some time afterwards. It's a miracle that I'm still here. That wasn't the only time that I've thought or attempted suicide. Like I said, it's a miracle that I am still alive and kicking. I think that life must have a meaning left.

You know, you're wrong on several points. Suicide is not a permanent solution to anything. The pain that you're obviously going through is not easy. Nothing that can cause you to think that suicide is a solution ever will be easy. You're not helpless. Life is a roller coaster, so enjoy the bumpy ride. Corny saying, I know, but I hope it helps.

Yeah I've tried suicide to, so have my friends. There are people that can help, even if you are told that everything is pointless. I can't tell you how your feeling or say that it's going to be easier as you try to get help. The reality is that its hard but that doesn't mean it's never gonna get better. I was beat and raped twice by another guy, failed high school and had no friends. I felt like my life was nothing and not only that I didn't say anything and that person raped two girls a couple years later. In my eyes I'm forever guilty of his crime for saying nothing. I'm never gonna be forgiven, and I don't want to be forgiven. All I want now is to make a positive impact in the world anyway I can. Now I'm in college, I have really close friends that help me with my depression and I'm in love with a girl that loves to be around me. Is it the best life with millions of dollars? No, but I make the people around me happy and the girl I care about laugh. I'm still struggling and still have problems but I'm not quitting on life. I still effect the people around me and I'm still a quite person and its tough talking to people. I always think people hate me at all times but I'm still making friends. It's never to late to try and you won't feel peace or anything when your dead. You need to be alive to have feelings and I can tell you I feel the happiest when I'm hanging with my friends and especially with the girl I care about. I wouldn't trade the time I have with her for anything in this world. Also you think I've known this girl for years or something, no. I have known her for only 5 months now and we've become so close. Things can change for the better at anytime. Don't give up!

When you say "school" I'm assuming you mean high school. Has anyone talked to you about getting a ged? Graduate equivalence degree? It's essentially the same thing as a high school diploma, but without the whole "high school" thing. Most community colleges offer ged programs and it's a good way to get your life back on track.

You'll find that in a community college environment people are much more grown up. The bully factor is almost non-existent because, sadly, you and everyone else will have to pay money to go. The good news is that this weeds out the undesirables who really don't want to be there.

If it's any consolation, I went to my 20 year high school reunion last year. One of the big bullies is working at a gas station, another is unemployed and living with his mom. Neither had the guts to show their faces. They were losers 20 years ago and they're still losers, they just found out that bullying doesn't get you anywhere in the real world.

I hope you are doing better.

Your life is kinda like mine.
You feel like nobody cares.
I hate my life, but unlike you I have friends and I do go to school.
I wanted to drop out because I was new in school and didn't have any friends.
I do now.
and I no its not easy.
I tried cutting my veins b4 but it didn't work.
My dad is dead, so I can't say anything about him.
But my mom used to drink a lot.
Well I can't really help u, but you should keep on going.
Think on the positive things you have in life.
Even if you think you have none, at least try.
And your counselors were wrong.
You are not worthless.
Nobody is.
Even if you are the weirdest person.
YOU ARE NOT WORTHLESS!
i really want to help but I don't know how.
I am sorry!