Cant get over my first love..what do I do??

I feel the same. My first love and I dated for almost 6 months. Then she broke up with me, cause she did not know if she was in love with me. She still loves me, just not in love. Just give her time. Believe me, it is hard. Just be friends, and stay in touch. Call her at night, or message her on line. Now do not spam her, just call or leave a message once. Let her decide if she wants to talk to you. She already knows how you feel, let her figure out if she wants you. By the way, marriage is way to early man. Just wait. Some do work early, but others just end really badly. DO NOT RUSH A GOOD THING! Take your time, and enjoy what you have. If your rush it, you will loose it.

I remember my first love at the ripe young age of 13. She rejected me many times and finally a year later after she grew up a little and got some things sorted out in her head we started dating and years later ended up getting married. I would just give her space and be her friend for now. While you are at it why don't you start seeing other girls. I remember a saying; "Human nature is so constructed that it gives affection most readily to those who seem to demand it least". Sometimes playing hard to get is not a bad idea.